I want a god

I Want A God - Chapter 1

Before the beginning, quick notice!
This is a translation of another fanfic I post here (I write it on Russian, HUGE thanks to my friend who helps me translate this✨).
I'm not really sure how often the chapters will come out, it depends on when I'll finish the Russian version and when will my friend be able to translate this thing owo✨
So hope you'll enjoy!!!
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How does our world work?
It's a very confusing question.
But if I'm being honest, it works very strangely.
Let's start with the fact that there are three types of people,
gods, angels and regular people.
Angels live on their "skies" while gods are scattered around the regular world and are living amongst regular people.
This is strange, that feeling when the ones who need to be respected less, are respected more than someone who deserves it.
But on the other hand, it makes sense that gods live along with people,
if a normal person starts believing in God, he will become an angel.
Angels give more power to gods while the gods give them power by making them angels.
The more angels the god has among him, the more power he has.
I want to become an angel.
I want to believe in someone who could protect me and someone who will believe that I can do something good too.
I have no idea if I will ever find a god for myself,
almost everyone around me- hate me,
they think that I am "special" and they always try to get rid of me.
Every day I need to put another patch on myself because of the fact that they try to "get rid of me".
They say: "Rachel, look at yourself! You have been shown where your place is at many times by now, and that place is certainly not here!"
but...I won't listen to them.
It hurts but I endure it.
I cry a lot but even a sea of tears will not stop me,
I will reach the land from this sea, I will find my god.

A great motivation for another school day.
For me, the most important thing right now is not giving up.
Or in other words- I have to not die.
At home in the morning, we don't have anything special,
Already a few years I've been living with a family that took me in.
I cannot clearly remember the reason why am I in this kind of situation,
but I can remember a man with a some kind of weapon and that it hurt badly before I lost consciousness.
Then I just woke up in an unfamiliar place and I was in a very bad condition.
There they found me, they decided to help me, and give me a new home.
Sometimes in the mornings I get to speak a little with the son of the woman that was one of the people who decided to help.
The guy is somewhat my age and he is very cute, but he doesn't want others to know that we know each other because we go to the same school together.
The morning went like it usually does, I got prepared, ate breakfast and went to school.
On the way to there I sang myself an unfamiliar melody... I don't know where I heard it... but the melody sounds so peaceful and... beautiful...
Okay! I need to focus!
Everything went peachy.
I got into school, went to my classroom...
No one seemed to attack me in the morning.
For now it's good.
The first two lessons today are biology,
The school bell rang and everyone sat at their desks and
after some time, our teacher Daniel Dickens came inside.
Well, he is a regular teacher, but the thing that bothers me is every time when we speak he tells me I have a special look,
not "a look on this world", no, he means the actual look in my eyes.
-"Your eyes are quite interesting, I would rather even say, they are unique"
I remember how he said this to me.
It's strange, and even a little scary... I never gave much attention to it.
I could easily forget those words, but he says this pretty often...
Is that a problem in me?
The lesson went fast, the bell rang again and everyone started going towards the dining area,
but I didn't go there, I always bring my own food to school.
I like to sit alone in the corner and relax.
I started going towards the exit of the school garden.

???: "Wow, I am surprised you decided to come today"

I turned my head and saw three guys.
I know them, and not because of good reasons.

guy 1: "Oof, I would want to bring you back the look we used to see you in"

guy 3: "Or just to never see you again!"

I saw that one of them held a crowbar.
I just wanted to get out of here as fast as I could.
I don't want to.
I don't want to let them bully me again,
I just started running towards the exit to the garden.
I saw that they ran after me and I started thinking, where should I run so they would fall behind?
I ran into the depths of the garden and at some point I noticed... a new path?
I never noticed it but it's the only place I can run to now!
I turned to the path and at the end of it I saw something resembling a house?
but...it was a dead-end!
I don't know where can I go!
I noticed that one of the walls of the house is clogged with boards but I can enter through one of the wholes under.
I quickly entered the house and saw a regular room with a sofa and with a lot of boxes around.
Outside I saw those guys that chased me.

guy 1: "IDIOT WHY ARE YOU JUST STANDING? BREAK THOSE BOARDS ALREADY!!!"

the guy with the crowbar started breaking the boards and then I noticed a door,
I went to open it but... it was locked!
What should I do?!?!
I heard that the sound of breaking stopped and saw that the guys entered the room.

guy 2: "That's it! Now you have nowhere to run!-"

At that moment I heard that the door behind me had opened.

???: "Hey what the hell is happening here? how did you get in?!"

I saw that the guys were scared?

???: "You better get lost before I understand who should get from me!"

guy 2: "y-yea! sure!!!"

They all escaped in a mere second and only after that I looked behind.
I saw a tall guy in a gray shirt, his face was covered in bandages and he had brown gloves on his hands.

Ray: "O-oh, I'm sorry I didn't mean to bother you..."

I was about to leave when he grabbed my hand and looked at me.

???: "You better not leave now, I know what is happening, they will find you very quickly if you leave now..."

So... he wants to help me?