His baby

chapter 1.....

My head's pounding as I make my way through the house. The pain increases as I grasp onto a wall nearby. The cold sweats then return and my head is spinning so fast I thought I would pass out. I shut my eyes tight hoping this tragic pain would leave my body.

My free hand automatically went to my stomach while trying to ease it. "Not right now baby" i whispered to my unborn child who was still very young but i'd like to think he can still hear me.

I quickly ran to the bathroom as I threw up everything that was in my body. I gasped for air right when I was finished and laid my head on my arms. "You know you're going to have to tell him" I looked up and saw my older brother staring at me with sympathy while leaning on the door frame.

"And I will Noah. I just need time,'' I replied, trying to shake the sickness away from me.

"I know" his voice was almost silent as he ran some cold water over a rag and handed it over to me. "This pregnancy thing is really turning you into a troll" he chuckled making his way out of the bathroom.

I smiled but only a little bit I didn't like being too happy because something bad always happens. I spread the rag over my face feeling the coolness on my skin and breathing out.

After a few seconds I stood up and brushed my teeth while taking my reflection in the mirror. My eyes were swollen and my hair was half up and half down from the restless night I had. I spit out the good tasting toothpaste and decided to get ready for the day since I had school. I closed the door and turned on the shower.

The warm feeling from the steam was already making me feel better, it always does. I slowly slipped in and let the steam relax my body until it was like none of this bad stuff had even happened and that everything would be perfect again. But sadly those endings only belong in fairy tales.

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I pulled into the parking lot of my highschool nervously looking around for my boyfriend Jackson.

"Ready to go see your daddy" I whispered to him. I locked the car behind me and instantly felt a presence near me. I smiled as his strong arms wrapped around my body and his scent covered me completely. 

"I've missed you" he whispers while planting a kiss on the side on my cheek. I turned around taking his face in my hands "I've missed you too" I slowly leaned in and gave him a kiss.

Memories from that special night then replayed in my head and I started to see every detail. The way his lips were so soft against my kiss and his eyes staring deep into mine. His deep husky voice rings in my ears as he  planted kisses on my throat "I wont ever hurt you i promise".

He pulls away and his eyes are filled with concern. "Your trembling whats wrong" his eyes scan over my face trying to look for his answer. "Jack it's nothing" I say, putting on one of my best fake smiles. "Jenny I-" 'I'm fine Jack i promise" i break in reassuring him.

I gave him one last kiss before intertwining our fingers together pulling him towards the school building. Crestview school hallways are packed as usual, we manage to maneuver through the people and finally end up at our lockers.

"Jen" Jackson says, pulling my arm back a little as he turned me so that I was facing him and lifted his hand to my face. "Promise you'll tell me soon" his fingers lightly brush the swollen skin under my eyes.

"Tell you what Jack" I ask hoping he will drop the subject but he doesn't. "You know what I'm talking about Jen," he breathes out and lays his head against mine. "Just promise me".

Our eyes are locked on each other and in that moment I couldn't find the words to say. His stare can make you forget what your name is at times.

"Okay I promise" I offer a smile to which he returns before planting a kiss on my forehead. I open my locker pulling out my books I need for the first , second and third period before shutting it tight.

"Ready" Jack says with a sly smile on his face. I smile back before placing my head in his as we make our way down the hallway. I walked into my english class looking around at all the bored expressions of my fellow classmates.

"Hey man" a jock says to Jack while giving him a fist bump as we are taking our seats. "Jenny," he says, looking past him and giving me a nod. I nod back but automatically return my focus back to Mr. Brooks for the next hour.

The lunch bell finally rings after what seems like forever my stomach was growling but was also feeling nauseous at the same time.

I find Jack leaning on the wall that leads to the cafeteria with his eyes locked on mine and a smile never leaving his face. "How's my girl doing?" he asks, wrapping me in his big strong arms, picking me up slightly.

I don't respond, I just snuggle deeper into his warm embrace. "Alright love birds some of us would like to eat today" Ryder says lightly bumping us on his way over.

Jackson rolls his eyes and groans but still retrieves from my hug. "One days it's just going to be you and me," he says before grabbing my hand and leading me toward the smell of food.

I smile at his comment but can't help wonder about the baby growing inside of me, our baby. I still haven't had the courage to tell him and am scared by his reaction to it.

"You have a seat and I'll be back" he tells me. I walk over to our casual sitting spot and automatically feel alone. Ryder has his arm around his girl, who's always my best friend. Four jocks are huddled in their little group talking about football and a small group of cheerleaders who are reapplying their lip balm before next period. 

Jack comes back with a tray full of all my favorites, mac and cheese with chocolate pudding, chicken nuggets and cold water. "Thank you Jackie" I say , giving him a kiss on the cheek. He rolls his eyes but manages a chuckle. He hates it when i say his nicknames in public but at times i can't help the look on his face.

I refocus to the food that's in front of me and I start to become very nauseous. I picked up my fork and decided to eat something for my baby. I managed to get three bites down when I quickly ran to the bathroom to spit it back up. I laid my head against the side of the wall wishing this pain would go away.

I held onto the door while I tried to help myself stand up. I went to the sink and quickly washed my hands not noticing how bad and tired I looked in the mirror. Jack was outside the door holding my bag that I had left behind. "Feeling better" he asked, coming close to me. I just nodded, not feeling the urge to talk too much.

"Jen that's the third time this week you've thrown up" his eyebrows came together and confusion and worry was written all of his face. "What's wrong" he asks or more like pleads for me to tell him, to let him in on my biggest secret.

"Jack I just need time to tell you" I answer pleading with him to not carry this on. "Tell me what" he asks, urging it on. I just shake my head afraid of bursting into tears at that moment.

"I-I" I couldn't find the right words to tell him. A few tears managed to softly go down my cheek as I tried searching for the right words.

He softened at the sight of seeing me cry. He slowly took a step towards me and wrapped his arms around me.

"It's okay Jenny I can wait" he whispered which only made the crying worse. I gripped onto him hard feeling everything just slowly fall apart.

I didn't choose to be a teen mom at such a young age when I barely even had a mom of my own. And to think that Noah's leaving for college tomorrow leaving the baby and I completely alone.

I cried harder at the thought of being alone in my big house. Jack just stroked my hair and started whispering sweet things into my ear.

I just wanted to stay in his arms forever because I know that I'd always be safe in his embrace. But I knew that nobody can stay safe forever.

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Wowza's the first chapter is published!! Yayy
And also welcome to my first book that I'm working extra hard on! The first chapter isn't all that great but keep reading I promise it gets better!

Let me know what y'all think about it I would love some input! And if you have any questions or ideas please feel free to let me know!

Until the next chapter my beautiful people!!