~SKIES POV~
I hate to have to go back in this hell hole of a house, my dad is gonna fuckin flip once he sees me, and i dont have time to hear him rant in my fuckin ear. God i fuckin hate it here.
I walk to the door step not wanting to go in the house, i really dont wanna deal with his shit nor his mouth. I walk in the door step and the first thing i see was my mom, she was doing the dishes not looking up to see who was at the door, i hate my mom being like this, my shit hole of a dad did this shit and it fuckin hurts me bad.
skies: hey mom
she looks up at me and then looks down
mom: hey skies
she doesn't even call me my real name anymore, this shit is just fuckin sad
mom: you know your dad is mad at you right?
she said blankly
skies: why?
mom: because you didnt come home last night
skies: so? im always out
mom: he thinks you were out with someone else other than landon and iann because if you were you would've came home more earlier
skies: why does he have to bitch all the time
mom: i dont-
dad: hey!
i look over and to my suprise its my dad
dad: you better watch your damn mouth in this house boy
i just roll my eyes
dad: now explain to me why you didn't come home last night
skies: why the hell does it matter to you
dad: didn't i fuckin tell you to watch your mouth
this shit just puts me inna bad mood
dad: and yes it does because i know you were out with someone else
skies: what? i cant have new friends
dad: are you outta your goddamn mind
then boom he hit me, again and again and again
skies: are crazy stop!!! what the fuck is wrong with you
dad: YOU KNOW DAMN WELL YOU CAN ONLY STICK WITH THE PPL I TELL YOU TOO!!!!
dad: now your gonna tell me who the fuck is the trick you were hanging out with
how does he know?
skies: i wasn-
slap*
dad: were lying now, YOU DONT FUCKIN LIE TO ME BOY!!!! TELL ME NOW!
i was filled with so much anger at this point i couldn't talk
skies: shes not a trick, ALL THE OTHER BITCHES THAT YOU WANT ME WITH ARE TRICKS
dad: so the fuck what your gonna stop hanging out with her because if she finds out that your in a gang she dies and you die
skies: what the fuc- why
dad: because if she finds out shes gonna snitch and the police are gonna kill you and if they kill you were gonna kill her
dad: but if you decide to still not follow the rules, we kill her and you get kicked out of the gang, and you know what happens when you get kicked out of the gang
god i fuckin hate my life
dad: so i suggest you to stop before you get fucked up now getcho ass ready for school, and you better be back here before midnight before some shit is gonna go down
i then storm off in my room and change clothes, god my life is so shitty i fuckin hate it, first my mom barely shows love anymore, then i get a threat from my dad kicking me out of a gang because im hanging out with a girl that literally saves me from suicidal thoughts, god ppl just don't understand how much i need her in my life. Shes the one who keeps me from killing myself sometimes, this gang shit is getting depressing because nothings the same anymore. I get no love, no one really cares about me, most bitches that want me are just there for my looks or a quick fuck. But mia isnt like that, she actually likes me for me, and she actually cares about me. FUCK i love her so damn much, i honestly dont know what would happen if im without her. I would probably just fall apart and be depressed, my depression gets really serious, i have severe suicidal thoughts and alot of pain physically and mentally. Then i start cutting myself and taking pills, and i cry ALOT but i dont let anybody see me. And then i just ghost everyone and be stuck to myself, i just really need to feel something right now
( a/n: this part contains self harm so if you dont like it just skip over until you see some red x's)
I go into the bathroom and look in the cabinets and find my razer blade, i lower it to my wrist and began cutting, i hissed in pain as i was adding more cuts. Blood was dripping on the ground and all over the blade, it got really bad so i stopped at 5 cuts, then i looked at the time and realized that i was late for school, i quickly cleaned up the mess and and ran out of the house with my things.
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I walk out the house and realized that i didnt clean off my wrist, but i figured that it would just dry up during the day. I finally arrived at school and im a couple minutes lates so i got a pass from the office and went to my first period. I walked in my first period and everyone laid there eyes on me
math teacher: mr foose your late
skies: yea yea i know
then my eyes went straight to mia, she flashed that gorgeous smile of hers at me, flashed one back at her. God she was just so beautiful i needed her, not in a sexual way tho, a soft way. I wanna lay up under her, hug her, snuggle her, cry to her, rant to her about my problems, i just need her right now because i feel like my depression is slowly coming back to me, and i cant deal with it no more.
I just walk to my seat let my thoughts take over me.
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1039 words💕
this chapter is lowkey sad😔
byyyeee❤️
