~SKIES POV~
After she put her and on my cheek I couldn't hold it in anymore, I let a tear fall. Im not soft like this ever and I don't let anyone see it, but her touch weakened me. I couldn't let her see me like this, so I just walked out and went in the garden. I made it to the garden and I cried my ass off, I never felt this way before.
Before I even got in the gang, my mom would always show me love. She would comfort me when I was sad, she would hug me out of the blue, and she caressed my face to calm me down whenever im worked up or mad, mostly stressed.
And now that im in a gang, I don't get that treatment anymore, it all stopped when I was 10. I was a mommas boy and I still am, but now I have to be all tough and rude and just mean off the top to not show my soft side.
And I sometimes just wish that things wouldn't have to be so serious all the time. And I still do wish that my mom was the same. And after all that happening I will never forget mia's touch, they way she put her soft ass hands on my face, her soothing words made me forget anything and everything in exsitance.
The way she looks at me with her soft brown eyes, and when she hugged me it sent me over the top. I love the way she smells, and how she feels, her warm body touching mine made me relax myself onto her.
All of her actions were just like my moms, and I missed every bit of it. And to be honest, shes making feel some type of way. A way that I never felt before about a girl, I mean, I was only being rude to her on the first day was because I wanted her attention.
I want her to pay attention to me and me only, I just want her all to myself. Ever since I seen her in front of that nail shop I couldn't stop thinkin about her since, I just needed to talk to her, but I couldn't be soft about it.
Who am I kidding, I cant date her. My dad wont accept it, this whole gang im in wont accept anything I do and its ruining my life. But I have to deal with it, and if I break the rules then ill be kicked out of the gang, and if I get kicked out all the gang bangers will kick my ass until im dead, or just leave me on the ground with broken bones.
Its a shame that no one has love for me, not even my own dad, he'll just let it happen. That's why im so harsh and mean all the time. And I have to continue to show that side of me because no one can see the soft side of me, not even landon and iann.
Im just sad because ill probably never get to feel mia's touch again, I could honesty live in her arms, that moment we had just made me feel so much better in general.
Im all done being in my feelings now, I cant stay here forever, I wish I could though, with me in mia's arms. But I know that will never happen, *sigh, I guess ill go back now. I walk back to the main campus and I see landon and iann walking towards me.
iann: bro where were you
landon: yea we been lookin for you
skies: guys im good I just needed some time to myself
iann: why?
skies: why so many questions?
then they both smirk at each
skies: whats so damn funny?
landon: well kimetrius
skies: don't call me that
landon: whatever, we seen you walk out of a classroom
skies: ok?
iann: and after you walked out we seen mia walk out of the same classroom
skies:...
landon: what were you guys doing in there huh?
skies: nothing
iann: are you suuuuuuure
skies: look all I did was check her for ignoring my messasges
landon: oh so you text her?
skies: yea so what?
iann: dude I never seen you like this before, especially to a girl
landon: and you have so many other girls on your dick that you can text
skies: whats wrong with me texting another girl that I wanna text, maby I don't want to text those girls
then they both look at each other
landon/iann: YOU LIKE HER!!
skies: what the hell? nooo i don-
iann: bro your so cap right now
skies: it doesn't even matter, i cant date her anyway
landon: says who
skies: my dad you fool, he wont let me date anyone, he'll only let me get at them dick suckin bitches and i dont want them i want....
landon: just say it bro dont be ashamed
skies: i want mia
iann: bro i never seen you do in love before
skies: HEY! i never said i was in love
iann: ok ok sorry
then i just walk off
iann: he's definitely in love
landon: yep, i told you so
iann: bro no you didnt, i knew it first
landon: wha- noooo
skies: will you two stop yappin and come on
I walk in the school and the first person i see is mia, with some other girl. God she looks so damn good in them tight ass skirts she be wearing, it fits every curve she has, and her ass is so perfect and round, i just wanna squeeze the hell out of it.
And how shes so short, it looks like shes about 4'11, i dont know but she's perfect. And why cant she be alone for once, im always seein her with that same girl all the time. She needs to get the fuck and go somewhere, shes mine and only mine.
Shes so damn sexy, FUCK! I want her in so many different ways right now. But i cant, because of my dads stupid ass rules, man FUCK HIM. He dont even care about me, he cares about the money i make, he cant tell me who to get at and who i cant get at.
I get what i want, when i want, and thats a promise.
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and holy shit this escalated quickly...
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