Unexpected Fate

27: Lies and Pretend

My eyes widen. I bit my lower lip and tilted my head.

Seeing her makes me want to run over her and hug her so tight. Like I want to cry and run over her shoulders and never let go.

But I remember that we're no longer friends.

"Jenna?" I asked, my eyes are getting blurry. But I blinked a couple of times so that the tear won't escape its place.

Her eyes become soft, it's like she's about to cry. That's what I saw. But she immediately smirked and waved. "Hey Annie. Nice to see you!"

"What-"

"Oh, God." She looked at me as she roamed around, "You look good at personal." Is it more like a sarcastic or what? I can't really tell.

"You really do." She faced me.

"Thank you?" I asked tilting my head, not really know if she's being real or not.

"I want to hug you so bad but that'll be disgusting. So-" she shrugged and I opened my eyes and stare at her.

"What are you doing here?" I asked. Really confused.

"Oh, I have a project together with Asher." she looks at Asher with a huge grin, "Right, Ashy?"

"What?" I asked confusingly. I don't know what's going on.

"Oh, he hasn't told you yet?" She looked at Asher, "Wow Ash."

"Wait. What do you mean Project?"

"I also haven't told you." She facepalmed, "Right. I want you to know that I'm having a project with your, Boyfriend? Am I right?" She chuckles, "And I haven't told you that I'm working on Texas as a TV actress and I'm having a partner with Ashy. Isn't that fun?" She squealed.

"What?" This question is to keep repeating on my mind and keeps telling itself. "You're a TV actress? I'm so confused."

"Babe, I decided to make a fan page because it will give me an opportunity to learn more about Asher." She shrugs, "In fact, I just used some friends there."

My heart fell, she just used me? "You used us? Me? Jayden?"

"Why not?" She exclaimed, "I need more information from you since you're really an obsessed fan."

Isn't that Harsh?

My eyes start getting blurry, but I shook my head to prevent from crying.

Not here Annie, not in front of her.

"Okay, so let's get the fact that you used me." I started, "Why are you here?"

"Oh I also forgot." She giggles, "I went here so that I could tell more information about Asher since you and Asher are together right?" She smiles-sarcastically, "You deserve what really Asher is planning."

"We've done that already." I declared. still giving her a mysterious and suspicious look.

"No, you haven't known like everything." She giggles, "Did I mention that Asher is just using you because you're talented at songwriting?"

She starts walking and roam around me, "Did I mention that he used you because you have a lot of information about being a fan? Or maybe, for the whole fandom?"

I glanced at Asher. I can't read any information or emotion within his face like I used to. I want to know if everything that Jenna said is true.

"He doesn't love you. You're just an obsessed fan."

My heart broke, my heart shattered into pieces. He told me he loved me. He told me he's going to take care of me. He told me I deserve love. He told me that I'm more than a fan. He said he is grateful to have me.

This is the second time.

"Asher?" I looked at him, confirming if it's all true. My tears can't help but pour out. He looked at me with these emotionless eyes, I can't see anything. I can't see if he still cares about me. "Is this all true?"

"Don't make him say yes." She interrupted.

"Shut the hell up, I'm not talking to you!" I hissed at her and return my gaze at him.

"I don't understand, I gave everything." I sniffed, my tears can't quit falling from my eyes. "You promised."

"Promises are meant to be broken."

My eyes widen, my heart skipped a beat, the world stopped, the atmosphere was filled with silence and I could feel it's slowly breaking. I start shivering and looked at the ground. I can't believe, the person I've loved practically my whole just said in front of me. How could he...

"See? You idiot." She smirked, "He's mine."

"What the hell?" I declared. "I gave every single thing from me. I gave everything. Every single thing. I hold every promise you made and I trust you to fulfill every one of them. What did I do for you to treat me like this?" I barked, this time I don't care if I'm crying in front of them. I clenched my fist and start biting my lower lip just to stop sobbing. But It's not helpful.

His face remains emotionless, I can't read any single emotion. I can't tell if he is lying. I can't tell if he doesn't mean any of that. I can't tell what Jenna said is true.

"I trusted you." My eyes are getting black and blurry. I can't open my eyes so wide. I rubbed my eyes with the back of my palm and start sobbing.

"We have to go and we'll be late for the first shooting." She exclaimed. "Happy birthday Annie. I hope you enjoy your day by knowing the fact." She waved and dragged Asher's arm away from me. "Bye Pumpkin." She said mockingly.

I went to the wall and leaned. I covered my face with my hands.

What have I done? Why do I always receive every bad thing when I become happy? I feel like when happy passed by, there's always a storm, a sadness, days filled with tears. It was all lie and pretend. I don't know what did I do to deserve this. Do I really deserve what Jenna said? What did she tell me before? What did the haters tell me? I feel so unloved. I don't deserve being loved. The fact that you gave everything to the person you loved the most and they're going to break your heart. I don't know what to do. I just need help.

It feels like I want to build my boundaries, my own walls. And now, I'm afraidoft for everything. I'm now so sensitive that I don't want to enter a person in my life. I feel like I should go back from where I was. I don't want this. But I deserve it, right?

Knowing the fact that I met my idol and become his lover and best friend for six months, in all. I can't help but be happy. I felt like I'm the luckiest fan in the whole world, knowing that my idol is now my boyfriend or my best friend.

But it's just a pretend. He told me that I'm important in his life? It's just a lie. Saying that he loves me so much and afraid to Lose me? Was just a lie. I'm so broken.

I opened my phone and received a message. I rubbed my eyes, wondering why did they message me at this time. I blinked my eyes to look at my screen clearly.

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"Annie! Thank you for being the hard person cousin I've ever known. Thank you for the house and thank you for giving us some money to cure Hayley. We have now a huge house like we always dreamed of! And you know what's good? We're going to live here, TOGETHER! You don't know how much this makes us happy Annie. I love you and I hope you will go back soon. <3"