Was I too blind to see
the signs that You have shown me?
Was I too confident
that I overlooked the possibilities?
An then I asked myself,
Am I still on the right shelf?
Am I still on my right place
where my intelligence should be graced?
Am I still doing this right?
If so, why am I crying at night?
I shook my head in disbelief
Convinced myself to just sleep
At the depths of the ocean
At the height of the sky
In my sleep that night
There's something I realized
That the worst feeling is
not knowing what to seek.
In the realm of possibilities
where your mind feeds you with what ifs
With these thoughts in mind,
my heart was filled with fright
My mind crumbled
and my heart's just too confused
Am I going to leave or stay?
Typical question, you might say
But everything's easier said than done
So my mind screamed be dead and gone.
-DSB
