I could bend my own principles just for you but if it means losing myself on the process, I'd rather not. I'd rather ignore you. I'd rather not notice you. I'd rather compartmentalize what I have for you. I believe that by loving someone I could create a better version of myself, a pretty mind, a beautiful soul, not a self-destructive woman.
But I also believe that happiness comes with pain. Maybe it's normal. Maybe it really is the process. But will I know when to stop? Because everything has limitations. Everything has restrictions. And that is what I hate the most. But above all this, it sets everything in balance.
But do you know what I believe the most? That by losing myself, I will be able to find myself.
So tell me, what is really the process? How can I ever be ready when the time comes?
Or am I just really overthinking everything?
Just a thought,
DSB
