The View of The Outlaw

Hard Road

Sometimes when you least expect it to happen, either a good or bad thing happens. It knocks the wind out of us, sometimes my biggest stress reliever is jumping on my Harley and going on a long ride to clear my head. A true outlaw finds the balance between the passion in his heart and the reason in his mind. The outcome is the balance between might an right. There comes a point in your life when you have to make hard decisions, I don't want that for you. I want you to have an easy life, an a better one than mine. I know you'll face the hard road, you'll face loose. I just hope that when you do, it's not the way I faced it, because when the sadness is gone, it becomes where all you want is revenge and vengeance. The older I get, the more I realize that age doesn't bring wisdom. It only brings weary, I'm not any smarter than I was five years ago. I've just grown too tired to juggle the lies and hide the fear. Self-Awareness doesn't show my indiscretion, exhaustion does. I will not let my future go on without the help of my soul. Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. Most of us were not violent by nature. We all had problems with authority, but none of us were sociopaths. We just came to realize that when you remove yourself from the social grid, you give up the safety that society provides. On the fringe, blood an bullets are a rule of law and if your a man with convictions, violence is inevitable. The day that my brother was killed, I felt so sad, angry, and full of wanting to seek out revenge. I felt like if I got revenge I could somehow bring him back. But I knew I couldn't, growing up, it was mostly him an I. We were always on the move. Never the type to stay still for to long. An the last thing that he ever said to me before he was killed was, "I'll see you on the other side brotha, I got this." An I never forgot that, there's some nights that I have dreams about that day, an how horrible it was. I wish that there was more that I would have done. I've always had a vision for the club being a legit club, but after so long. I don't have a vision anymore. I'd never turn on my family, I am not my father. I will be there for my kids, an my wife. I'll never leave their side.