After about an hour of seeing ateez interacting with other fans and some brief moments of recording, my number was finally called up! I headed for the stage and sat in front of mingi. Oh my god, my ultimate bias! He really does look as good as the photos! No, even better! As i was fangirling over mingi in my head, i asked my question, "your rap lyrics are very impressive, sometimes i notice you use advanced english words that even i don't know, where do you get your ideas from?" as he explained, i was mesmerized by his smiling pauses to remember the correct english words. I complimented him on his english and told him that i really admire his ability to compose lyrics, as the signal was given that my time was up. We briefly intertwined our hands as i was getting ready to move in front of seonghwa and i was mentally crying that i had to say goodbye so soon.
I wonder if i am being tested today? First, my ultimate bias mingi, now, my bias wrecker seonghwa! As i sit in front of seonghwa and give him the album, i realize there is something a little bit off...i pat the side of my hair only to realize that my hair clip had fallen out some point earlier. Seonghwa notices my slightly panicked demeanor and asks if everything is all right, to which i make up that i am just a little bit nervous. "Don't be nervous," he says as he takes my hand in his. I feel the blood rushing to my face and fear that soon my face will become indistinguishable from a tomato. Like a dummy, i laugh at my own joke which prompts seonghwa to laugh too, and for a brief second our eyes meet. I know he probably can't see me clearly since the lighting in the venue is positioned in such a way that the light creates a shadow on my face, but i felt just a little spark of happiness in me at this sweet moment. After he answers my question, i move to sit in front of hong joong. He flashed a shockingly beautiful smile, and i almost fell off the chair when i saw it. Collecting myself, i asked my question to him and complimented his english speaking ability. As he was answering it, i could not take my eyes off his face; his features look like a doll's and i feel like a failure of a woman in comparison. After saying goodbye and a brief high five, i sit in front of yunho. Yunho really lives up to his name of being a golden retriever, it was not just the lighting that was making this man shine, he really radiates positivity and kindness from within. I was having a great time getting my question answered and making smalltalk, but then i received the signal to move on to san, which i was a little intimidated about.
