Dear diary, a shit hole of a vent place.

heres my coming out and an update on life

Hey guys the names Rylie and I'm non-binary I use they/them he/him anyways so update uh I've been lonely over quarantine I've felt like I'm trapped but yeah I've deleted the rest of the chapters because yeah they're cringe asf and well my mothers been yelling at specifically me lately because I'm a "woman" and I should cook and clean which is stupid asf I really like this girl but I know for a fact that she'd never date me lmao kinda sad but oh well I've been 5 days clean I've relapsed a bunch in quarantine which is a bad thing ig but I've got friends to support me I've had a total of 7? Mental break downs over the past couple weeks but yeah my anxiety has worsened and so has my depression I've had no motivation to clean or do anything productive I honestly just wanna run away rn and never come back life is stressful and hard and no one saying "it'll get better trust me" or "you'll be okay" with make it any less painful. People think saying the simplest words can make things better when sometimes it really just makes things worse, people need to learn and think before they try and comfort someone. Everything just sucks and no amount of words are going to help I just need a shoulder to cry on and someone to hug I don't want advice like "you're strong you'll be okay." It dosent help me I just want someone to listen to me not to give me advice and expect me to be okay when I'll probably just end up getting mad instead.