Johnny laid down in his room and stared at his ceiling. He was trying not to think about Chittaphon but thoughts of the short male filled his head."Hey, you alright?" Yukhei asked, taking a seat next to Johnny- who looked like his mind was somewhere else.
Johnny sat up and looked Yukhei in the eye.
"If I'm being honest- not really." Johnny let out a sigh.
"C'mon man, you can tell me what's up." Yukhei said, giving Johnny a playful shove.
Johnny didn't say anything so Yukhei decided to continue.
"I know I'm not the best person to talk to about serious stuff- I joke around a lot so I get it. But I'm here for you man, if you wanna talk about something, I'll be here to listen and do my best to help." Yukhei said putting a reassuring hand on Johnny's shoulder.
Johnny was taken back by the sudden heart felt confession he just heard from his equally tall roommate. He felt bad for not really trusting Yukhei. They weren't super close but he still felt a little shitty about it.
"Thanks Yukhei, it means a lot to have someone to talk to." Johnny thanked Yukhei.
Yukhei just smiled back so Johnny decided to keep going. He felt like he should tell Yukhei about what was going on with him and Chittaphon.
"So...don't laugh but-" Johnny took a deep breathe, not feeling like his usual confident self. "I have a really big crush on Chittaphon. At this point I don't think it's even a crush. I think I'm in love with him. But I don't know what to do cause he has boyfriend but he almost kissed me the other day so maybe-"
Johnny was cut off by Yukhei yelling with nothing but surprise in his face. "You almost kissed him?!? You're in love with him?!?" Yukhei couldn't believe what he was hearing.
Yukhei was one of the only members, besides Mark, who didn't know about this. Johnny didn't tell anybody but most of them were able to come to the conclusion themselves. Mark as usual, caught onto things a little late.
The way Johnny always talked about Chittaphon even when the short male wasn't there. He always hurried to his phone after they finished recordings of concerts to text Chittaphon.
When everyone found out about Chittaphon having a boyfriend, they all tried to cheer up Johnny while also trying to be supportive for Chittaphon.
"Yeah I love him but he's in love with someone else." Johnnys voices cracked, which didnt happen often.
Yukhei was about to say something but he stopped when he heard quiet sobbing.
Johnny was crying.
Yukhei didn't know what to do so he just patted the older males back.
"It's okay man, let it all out." Yukhei reassured Johnny that it was okay to cry, that he wouldn't judge him.
"I just d-don't understand. What did I do to deserve this painful feeling?" Johnny sobbed a little louder.
Yukhei felt sorry for his friend. He couldn't do anything to help him. He felt useless.
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"Whatcha doing?" YangYang asked, rolling over to where Jisung was laying down.
Jisung scooted away a bit but YanYang thought it was for him to move closer, so that's what he did.
"I'm playing a game." Jisung said focused on his phone screen.
"Cool. Watchable playing?"
"Just a game." Jisung started to get annoyed with YanYang's questions.
YangYang could feel Jisung getting annoyed with him so he left the room and returned to his own.
He took out his phone and texted Kunhang. He wanted to vent to his friend about his feelings. Little did he know it hurt Kunhang every time YanYang talked about how great Jisung was.
Looks like Johnny isn't the only one in love with someone who loves someone else.
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