One With The Ocean

8) stay away from me

(Matthew)

I stare at her body as the water hits her and the soap bubbles run down her delicate caramel skin. I probably look like a creep right now but I don't care. I love her and her body. Wait, what did I say? No, it can't be love. I refuse it to be love. I snap back into reality when Reina waves her hand in front of my face.

"Are you okay? I've been trying to get your attention for a while now." I smile and peck her forehead. The less intimate I am, the less I will love her. She notices by behavior but doesn't say anything. "Yeah I was just thinking about something. Don't worry about it. Just go get dressed and situated, I'll meet you in a second."

She smiles and pecks my lips before getting out of the shower. Once she is completely out of the bathroom, I sigh and let the water run into my hair and down my back. I never felt these feelings for anyone before so why start now? Maybe if I could just forget about her. Yeah, that might work. I finally get out of the shower and expected her to be up but she wasn't even in sight. All that was on the bed was a note.

You're not good at whispering and all I have to say to you is to go to hell! I can't believe I would think that you're different! Do me a favor and go fuck yourself!

Much hate, Reina

Shit, what have I done?

(Reina)

I run to Leilani and Jayden's house which was a little far. Once I make it there, the tears were gone but it was still clear that I was crying. I ring the doorbell and instantly I hear footsteps. Leilani opens the door and gasps.

"Babes, what happened? Why are you crying?" I couldn't get any words out and she knew that. She opens her arms out and that's when I loose it. I start to break down into her arms as she hugs me.

I'm now sitting on her couch with her teddy bear pajamas she loaned to me and some hot cocoa. She sits down next to me and sighs. "What did my dumb ass cousin do now?" I chuckle at the thought of him at first but then a wave of sadness hits me.

"He was going to just use me. He can't whisper for shit when he's in the shower. He said that he couldn't be in love with me so he was going to use me to help him get rid of those feelings. Do you know how fucked up that was? It hurt badly to the point where I don't even want to be near him at all costs. I want to go home and I might even quit my job just so I don't see him."

Leilani sighs before shaking her head. "I know I'm going to come off as a bitch for saying this. But if you quit your job over him, then you are a pussy. But here me out. You enjoy doing what you do right? So why let my dumb ass cousin get to you?"

I roll my eyes and put the mug down. "It's because I slowly started falling for your dumb ass cousin. I was willing to put my hatred against mafia men away for him. I was willing to step out of my comfort zone for him. And what does he do? Say these cruel things thinking that he's going to get away with it."

She scoffs. "Trust me, even if he managed to, I would fuck him up for doing it. Either way, he's getting his ass beat and he's loosing the best thing that came into his life. You can crash here as long as you have to. There's a guest room upstairs you can sleep. Help yourself to the food. There's even ice cream. Just don't worry about my cousin and focus on what's best for you okay? Love you."

I smile and hug her for being so kind to me. I mumble a thank you. She pecks my forehead and leaves me downstairs to myself. I put on tv and started to watch On My Block and let me tell you I barely wasn't even watching it. I was too busy focused on the fact that I was really letting my guard down for a lowlife. After tonight, a new Reina is going to appear and he won't like it one bit.