Alpha - hs

3.

Obviously, it did not happen. I knew that running away from Niall was not going to be easy but, at least, I thought Paul was going to be on my side. But, it turns out, looking at me having an existential crisis for three hours at the event, was a good enough reason for him to listen to Niall and not me. So, instead of heading home, I was going to his'.

I sat on my seat looking out of the window, hands interlocked with each other.

I just hoped it was going to be a private conversation, with just Niall and me.

"Do I really have to?" I asked Paul frustrated and all I earn as an answer is a shrug. I rolled my eyes focusing on the road. "You're not my parents, you know?" I kept talking needing to share how much this situation annoyed me.

"He cares about you" He starts with a sigh, clearly already over with the conversation but understanding my point of view "He is just worried" I knew he was, I knew Niall like myself "Plus, you should not worry, he can't stay mad at you" I smiled at that knowing it was true.

Paul did not talk much but when he did he always seemed to know the right thing to say to help the other person out, I really envied that from him.

-

I entered the house without announcing myself. My, exhausted, rational self decided this conversation wasn't going to last long. My omega was stressed, true, but I knew better. I knew that not every single emotion can be controlled nor understood and even if I loved Niall with all my heart it was not his place to judge or comment. My behavior was reckless, yes, I should not have done that but I am fine, good. I just needed to go to sleep, that's all.

My predictions on the conversation were really wrong, that was made very clear by the scents I could smell as soon as I walked into the house. And with that realization, all the confidence I acquired during the car ride faded, soon replaced by the big urge to hide but also to apologize profusely to everyone.

I still forced myself to walk and follow the people that left angry scents all over the house. I walked until I reached the living room, the big L-shaped couch in the middle of the room was occupied by a very looking stressed Harry, while, in front of him, Niall was standing.

"Hi," I said lightly, not finding anything better to announce me with. Niall turned around, while Harry simply looked up, both of them did not expect me to be already in the house.

"What the fuck happened?" Niall asked, walking up to me. I really did not like the voice he was using but I decided it was better not to comment on that. I took a deep breath and shook lightly my head, moving towards them.

"I am so sorry, so very sorry," I say looking at Harry with an apologetic look "I don't- It was- It's been a rough week and I- I think my soft heat is coming up and" I talked, hating myself more every single time my voice broke. This was stressful enough for me without the two alphas looking at me. I was so nervous I could not even focus properly on their scents to understand their true emotions.

"I cannot control these things, omega things. I just needed to be near an alpha" I hugged my body looking down, I just wanted to go home.

"It's okay. I am not mad," Harry answered, almost understanding my emotions. Like he knew I cared more about his feelings than mines, and I knew I did not look good.

"Nothing happened really, Niall's just jealous" He kept talking, trying to laugh about the whole situation.

"No, I am really worried," Niall talked, dead serious "You never acted like that before," It's not a question, and he was right "What happened?" he asked again.

"I do not know" I replied, honestly quite fed up with the conversation already "You know I am really careful with these things, I do not trust alphas," I look at him.

"But, there are needs and emotions that sometimes just I cannot control, you couldn't understand because you're not an omega" I tried to explain in the best way I could but at the same time I did not understand why I had to explain myself to Niall, or anyone for that matter.

"Besides, nothing happened. He is your friend" I said pointing at Harry, who nodded at my words

"Plus," I keep going walking towards Niall "I love you and you know it," I took one of his hands on my own "but, you're not my alpha and we both know you will never be" I shake my head "I appreciate your concern but I am not 15 and I can handle things myself" I finished, my heart pounding loudly in my chest.

I did not know what I expected from my little speech but being hugged by Niall was not one of the options. But he did, and I really appreciated it.

"You're right. I was just so worried, you seemed so out of it and I could feel your distress and did not know what to do" He starts after letting me go "And most of the time we just have each other and you are family to me, and it broke my heart to see you like that" Niall finished with a loud sigh "I am sorry"

I smiled at his words, my heart immediately feeling lighter while I move towards his body to hug him again, tightly this time.

"I get it, it scared me too" I whisper, it was only meant to be heard by Niall but the loud groan that came from Harry's lips let me know he heard, or so I thought.

Niall let me go as soon as he heard Harry, looking between him and me with a concerned look on his face.

"What?" I asked before Niall gently pushed me near the couch where Harry grabbed me by my arm and let me fall on his lap. He held me tightly, both his arms hugged my body possessively and started sniffing me gently. Even tho my mind tried to elaborate on everything that happened in the last few seconds, Harry's scent, actions, and touch did things to my body.

I momentarily forgot about Niall and turned around to face Harry. I smiled at him shily and his expression relaxed and his eyes clearer, I moved even closer to his body, trying to take in as much alpha scent as I could until he understood what I needed and pressed my face on his neck. He started to play lightly with my hair while whispering sweet nothings in my ear.

His actions combined with his scent and my state of mind made my omega all fuzzy and I silently started to fall asleep, just before I drifted I could hear Harry's soft voice and his hard grip on my body.

-

Once I woke up from what felt like the best nap I've ever taken in my entire life, I could not stop the pout that quickly formed on my face. I moved lazily around the bed, I was in one of Niall's guest rooms, unconsciously searching for Harry, and once I figured he was nowhere to be found I sighed sadly. I could barely smell him now which showed me he did not sleep with me and this realization made my mood fall even more.

I shook my head lightly deciding it was time for me to get my shit back together. Even tho I really missed Harry's presence I started thinking that it was better this way. Yesterday was an exception, never in my life I've ever let myself follow my omega instincts like I did last night. I needed to figure some things out and being away from the alpha was only going to help.