DIARY OF A STRAIGHT GUY

DEAR DIARY AUGUST 6,2012

It's 4am and I just saw Mickey and Minnie Mouse having sex in the corner.

-Yes I was high, I mean drunk..., or both?, I could barely see but It, I felt good either way-

Loud music, drugs to my right, alcohol to the left and a boy Infront of me,                                              .... A sexy boy Infront of me.

 -God, forgive me for what's about to happen-

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-buzzzzz-buzzzzz-buzzzzz- 

"Someone shut your Fucking phone off" I screamed
but no human organism answered, forcing  me to open my eyes.                                                                  - God was definitely not on my side- I felt my eyes burn due to the intensity of the light in the room coming from the only window centered on the wall Infront of me  it felt like I was goin blind and to make it worst I had a fucking head ache.

As I came to my senses I saw that it was my phone ringing , as I took it up in my hands I realized I had 30 freaking missed calls from grandma and to make it worst it was 10am and it was the first day of  junior year boy am I in deep shit ,

as I got up and look at the drunk teenagers at my feet , I steeped over them stepping on some guy, girl or they/them girlfriend but who was I to care I was having a massive hangover the 1st one this month and it always end in me waking up in an unknown place ,

 On my way out I grabbed my coat and went to my car, it was a twenty-eighteen grey Toyota Camry, boy did I love my car, i got it for my sixteenth birthday.

As I pulled up to my house I swear I started seeing doubles when i realized grandpa's car wasn't home, you see gramps would always save me when this happens now that he wasn't here or I'm assuming he isn't there since grandma can't drive, I'm really in for it.

As I walk inside I realized no one was here so I headed to my room and had a nice cold shower, My grandma knows I go to parties but that's all she knows nothing else, like the smoking and sex, I could never tell her about the life i live outside church she would have an heart attack and I like my grandmother alive but granddad knows a little more .

My Parents sent me to a catholic school so I could focus on god and still get a good education but there is where I realized all the lies my parents told me and that was when my morals started to crumble and I turned my back  against everything good in me, Rebellion was easy all I did was do stuff I would be screamed or punished for until half of these rebellious acts became an addiction.

I decided to joined the football team which lead me to go to parties every night , then I started to drink and do drugs and i'd have sex with anyone willing, so I guess my rise to fame didn't take long.

I realized that everyone was either sent here because of something they did in the past and that we all had a secret and because of that we could be ourselves because we all had dirt on each  other.

As I finished my shower i dried off and threw on a grey oversized sweater and pulled on my blue denim skinny jeans with tiny rips at the front,

as soon as i went downstairs to watch TV I heard pops car pulling into the driveway  'I was just  relaxing' i moaned as grandma stepped through the door 

I mentally prepared myself for the cursing i was expecting but grandma walked right past me as if i wasn't even in the room and went straight into her room slamming the door shut , 

soon after I see grandpa walking through the door with grocery bags, as I was about to say hey pops he held up his hand and said too far son as he walked pass me I heard him say :oh lord don't thy forsake us"the rest was a mumble,