I am not Depressed!!

I am not depressed. I can still smile at pretty things. And laugh when jokes are funny. I can still talk to people. And enjoy nice days.

But when I go inside,

When I am alone,

There is something broken.

And I fall into a sadness so sweet that it engulfs me.

I look in the mirror,

And I don't like what I see.

And the tears always fall,

When I'm falling asleep.

And I miss something that doesn't exist...!

Life is full of many challenges.

Hard choices that we're forced to make.

But it is the choices that we make.

It is the sacrifices that we give,

That determines Who We Are.

And Who We Will Be.

And it is how we deal with our loses,

That shapes our future.

For it is when we reach our lowest points,

That we are open to the greatest change.

we determine our own destinies.

I just wanted to be there for you. I tried to care for you and give you my all. Could it be that, that made us to fall apart?!

Tears fall too easy to these eyes and my ears believed far too many lies. So much heartbreak for a single heart to take.

BUT WHY STAY WHEN IT'S SO MUCH EASIER TO RUN AWAY?!

I wake up each morning with puffy eyes and my voice dried out, my chest hurt because I feel my heart literally broken into billion pieces. I'm sick to my stomach and I dont... I dont want to say anything to anyone, I dont want to talk or move but I do because I don't want people to know what's really going on.

It sucks more when they mention your name and I feel my heart breaking more and a tear falls from my eyes and roll down my cheeks.

Nothing hurts more than when your own heart breaks! You have absolutely no idea what so ever to do. You become blinded by rage! Anger! Sadness! Hurt and everything becomes a mess!

I am not depressed. I've just been sad for a while. But I can still find the light.

I can still wear a fuqin smile!!