Lovers' Fate (SebastianXCiel)

Chapter 25: Struggles

Ciel's POV:

I felt a damp cloth pressed to my forehead and warm arms around me, they reminded me of my mother's touch, she would hold me when I was upset or hurt.

All I remember is pain, countless hours of torture...I'm sure I'm broken by now, un-fixable...I'm sorry Sebastian. I let you down, I shouldn't have struggled, I should have gave in, this isn't like me at all. I am Ciel Alexander Phantomhive, head of the Phantomhive's and queen's guard dog, why must I play such pity games? I do my job and lately I've been sidetracked, I'm behind on paperwork, and I don't even know if I'm alive or dead. Why didn't they just kill me? To torture Sebastian? Toy with me? I just want to wake up from this nightmare...nightmare. If I'm thinking, I'm alive then, if I feel arms around me and a damp cloth on my head, I must be somewhere safe. I have to try to open my eyes, make a sound, something showing I'm alive.

I struggled to flutter my eyes open even the slightest, and they glowed soft Crimson at first but quickly went to my normal blue as my eyes adjusted to the dim light in my chambers.

Sebastian looked at me when I tried to move my head, "Ciel..." He whispered softly. It was almost a question, as if he couldn't believe it was really me.

"S-Seb-Sebastian..I'm sorry..." I managed to choke out, my voice was hoarse, and I could barely speak from pain and fear.

"Shhh, it's okay, your safe now. Please try to save your voice, I know it hurts, but I don't know what I could do." Sebastian spoke soft, and worry laced his voice, but I could tell he truly was clueless how he could help.

"Just don't leave...don't leave me..."

"Of course not, my love." He held me closer to his chest, and I relaxed to his touch almost instantly.

His warmth reminded me of my mother and father's touch. It almost brought me to tears, thinking about them, but I pushed the thought away, and snuggled to my fiancé. He was warmer than me, I knew I had a fever but the rest of my body was cold. Slowly warming up, I fell back asleep from exhaustion.

A/N: Hey darlings! I'm sooo sorry this is so late, a lot has been going on, and I plan to make this story many chapters, or start a new book because I don't know if you will understand everything I'll be saying. Just please leave a comment and tell me to continue or start a new book, and you can always request a one-shot, or anything! I'll do my best! Again, sorry it was late. ~ Nicole-Phantomhive