cross star lovers

chapter 5

Gd POV

since she looked busy i decided to leave first. it was great meeting her. even her voice sounded like an angel's. I was taken aback when she asked for my number but i gave it to her happily. she smiled as she gave her mine as well. I didnt know what got me, but before i left i gave her a hug. she stiffens in shock but then hugs back. her scent was something i would never forget. shes so small and i was afraid  i may crush her. i pulled back and waved bye. As i stepped out of the cafe, i let go of then tension in my body. i begin to walk slowy back to our dorm.

"hyung where did you go?" seungri greeted me as i opened the door. i was starlted but answered him calmly

"i went to see jiyeon"

"ahh... I thought you went...never mind hyung go and have some rest!"

"ye you too."

i went back to my room and changed my clothes. i saw the photo on my mirror and begin to tear up. I may have a very cool image but i know myself better than anyone.

im weak on the inside.

i failed to be with my girl during her last few days.

i failed to know that something was wrong.

most of all

i failed to spend time with her.

"kath ah..mianhe...oppa was such a failure..."

i look out of the window and saw a star. kath , is that you again? im doing well and is it because youre watching over me?

i pulled out my notebook. it wasnt any notebook. kath made the notebook. knowing that time wasnt on her side, kath made this notebook with our memories. the last thing she wrote was this

" jiyongie, please move on. theres nothing we both can do about this. i wouldnt want to see you sad over my death. if that is going to happen, then id rather we never met :)

remember what i liked the most about you? it was your smile. it was very warm and it made others smile too. so please dont stop smiling.

i really hope you can move on, theres no point and you will have to marry or mom wont be happy. she might even blame me XD

if theres things troubling you, you can always write in this notebook as a form of our communicaion. always remember, i love you ♡

dont stop smiling,

kath lee Eun mi"

i read my old entries in the notebook and i realise that i have yet to move on from kath. i decided to make another entry today

"EunMi yah,

jiyong oppa is doing fine, but i really miss you alot. i met a new girl today and shes snsd's taeyeon. she really resembles you and i would have introduced you both to each other but you left too soon. i would really appreciate it if you could come back again. i promise ill spend more time with you..."

I paused for a while as tear being to flood my face

"EunMi ah im sorry please come back..."

those were my last words as i drifted off to sleep on my desk. i heard a voice but i paid no attention

"eh hyung what should we do?"

"dont do anything. ive known jiyongie since 12. he will know how to pick himself up.

"but hyung.."

"go to sleep and we continue tomorrow, arraseo?"

"ye hyung good night"