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The silence wasn't awkward, i just had no questions yet- nor did Jeff.
But as we sat in his bedroom, I couldn't help but let my eyes wonder- Jeff seemed on edge ever sense we left the house.

I felt the bed shift under the weight of Jeff, I turned my head and caught his attention.

"Why are you so freaked out?"

His eyes met mine, the room was well-lit so I could take in his features better. I hadn't bother to notice how pale his skin was, and how dark the circles underneath his eyes were.
His curled pushed back hair lazily slept on his head as he shifts his chin to his palm.

"It's not exactly safe here, but we have no where else to go." He mutters.

"Why isn't it safe?"

He takes in a deep breath and moves closer to me, now to my side.

"People can't know I have you here, so I didn't exactly want to go outside- just in case someone saw you with me, and I think someone might've seen us."

His fingers came in contact with his hair, he ruffled it.

"Then why did you let me out, if you told me that earlier I would've stayed inside." Mumbling my regrets, I now felt guilty- more concerned for my well being more than anything else.

"I don't know, I felt bad keeping you inside- it's alright though."

While his focus was on the floor beneath his feet, my attention was drawn to the raggedy sliced wounds on his face.
My hand hesitantly flinching to the deep scaring on his cold,white pigmented skin. His head jerked towards me- however, my fingers still remained on it.

"Did you do this?" I mumble, it coming out more of a whisper- my eyes fluttered.

"Yeah." His voice got lower, but the tone was the same- he sounded surprised almost, maybe it was the sudden interaction.

"Why?" The feeling inside my chest turning from coldness to a burning blaze, my heart skipping after each flutter.

This nervousness is drowning me, why can't I breathe right now. I feel suffocated, trapped-

"I was sick with the way everyone treated me, as if I was this disastrous monster that ruined their lives by doing nothing but living. "

I gulped, being treated like that is something I can relate to- however, I would never in my life inflict such pain upon myself like this.
All people cope differently I guess, assuming he was unstable- I nodded.

"I understand, it's too bad that some people don't comprehend that everyone is different and so their first instinct is to make unnecessary comments or actions."

Huffing out the built up air inside, I felt my body relax- but only for a split second before I felt his hand overlap mine.

He wasn't leaning in, he wasn't attempting to make a move, he wasn't saying inappropriate things to me- so there is no reason to fear this situation right now, but why am I ready to burst out and yell.

Retracting my hand carefully yet forcefully, my shoulders moved closer to my neck- my legs shifted far away from him.

"But why cause worse pain to others, if you understand that pain- why inflict it."

That held tight passion inside my body quickly turned to anger, those burning hues of pink shifting to shredding,painful red.

I felt it in my throat, so many words- things I want to say.

"What did I do to you?" My voice cracked with emotion, the inflection breaking the tension in the room- shattering the anxiety I had and replaced it with pure madness.

"I never caused you pain, I don't even fucking know you!"

Chilling goosebumps appear from my skin, sweat forming on my face- Im so confused as to why he had to choose specifically me, and only me.

"Y/n-" he starts, hands out to grab my shoulders- hoping to shove the hysteria out of me.

"I would never intentionally cause harm on you." He said, confidently- I hated it.

"People like me out here don't get to experience what the actual living do, this is our only chance to do it- and I know it's horrible but please, you have to understand."

"I'm not some puppy you pick out of a litter."

"Of course, I know that- that's why I spent so long observing you."

Humming to myself, that's something you don't get to hear everyday- a creep like him, I never even noticed him at all!
And he's been watching me all this time..

"Are-" I paused, letting out a deep sigh.

"Are we safe, inside of here?"

He nervously cleared his throat, his hands slightly shaking in his lap- his eyes averted.

"Not exactly, I know something we can do to get safer however- it's extremely risky. We might get caught." Shrugging his shoulders.

"What is it?" I ask.

His head turns towards his window, it was closed- curtains only leaving a sliver of a view.

"Well, some time ago- I was exploring miles and miles from here, and I happened to find train tracks. I stayed until a train passed, I don't get see things like that all the time."

A train? Is he referring to running away on a train?

"I'm sure we could probably make it there, of course- if you don't I really can't force you to go. Although, that's the safer option if we do make it."

If we stay here, there's a high chance we could get caught- but, what happens when we get caught?

"Wait- what will they do if they catch us?"

"Well uh, they'll- they'll kill us most likely." His fingers went to the back of his head, eyebrows furrowing deeply.

"And you're willing to take that risk because you want to experience something that you've never experienced?" I questioned, meeting his low gaze.

"Of course, not a second thought about it." He immediately says, pulling back his hand and staring me deep in my eyes.

"Weird." I state, then leaning backwards and letting myself fall on his bed.

"I-I'm not weird." He stutters, glancing back at me.

Why did my body feel so tired, the day hasn't been that long- and yet I feel exhausted. Maybe I'm mentally exhausted instead of physically, all this is too much to handle.

I miss home so much right now.

"I miss my cat." I blurt, it was true- I was dearly worried for her. I've been gone all this time and she doesn't have another caretaker, fingers crossed that my neighbors noticed my absence and went into my house.

"I'm sorry, I didn't think of your cat." Jeff mumbles, turning his body to me while I continued to lay down.

"I never got your cats name, what is it?" He asks.

"It's C/n."

"I've always been a dog person, but I never really got to own a cat." He admits, I watched as his head bowed a bit towards me- his black hair dangling off his head.

"You hungry?" He quickly adds, I hadn't thought much about my hunger- I was distracted all day today. I guess I was hungry after thinking about it, before I could answer- my stomach did for me.

A low and long growl tickling my stomach, a chuckle escapes Jeff's mouth.

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Sorry this took way too long to make, I'm kinda struggling here.

Out-🖐

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