She's Sweet, But A Psycho

T.H.R.E.E

Jae's POV
 
I was sleepless again last night. Haha, I've always been, no jokes. I cried myself to sleep so why do i bother waking up early.

I am now 17 years old, and I have been through life for years. Well yep, how do i have to brag that? I am still 17 but i know and discovered it already on "what is life should do to you sooner or later."

I hope everyone in my family is aware what I am always been hiding throughout my days here in my room.

When i aged  15 I started to have questions on my mind on what could be the most possible thing that would happen in my life. Yet ,i cannot answer it because i have seen couple of movies that experience will taught you life lessons that you needed everyday, and you must apply that.

I've read so much horror, mysteries ,and some extraordinary books that anyone would find it creepy.

I love reading creepy things instead of romance and bullshits like that,talking about that makes me feel like i'm about to vommit.

I'm not saying that just because i feel like I wanted to, but that's what i really do think as always, talking about romance, being in love with someone, is pure bullshit.

I know it's bitter enough to say that, but I don't like seeing myself as a DUMB SHIT that is probably going to commit suicide just because my lover leave me alone ,duh.

I've heard that a couple times, suicidal bitches and stuffs saying that they would do anything for their boy, as well as the boy saying the same thing. Like hell , do they both know that they are fooling each other?

For me, there is 90% that every couple know the risk of that so called break-up. Unless?

Unless they are really committed to each other, but being committed is really scary , you couldn't stop me for saying that ,but hell yeah it is.

Once you commit yourself to someone else that you think that will make you happy forever, don't even think about it, it only exist in our imagination.

I  read so much Lucid dreams and stuffs like strange dreams like that ,and that only proves it that our mind is magical as we think it is. We could dream to have big house, fortune in life, perfect lover and a immortal life where no one would die, that's the power inside us , but our demon also lives there, it tempts us to do things ,it tempts us to be selfish and insult ,hurt and pain others.

At this age, i have done something strange ,as if i thought that i couldn't do. I bet i am going to regret this in my future life, but for now , life has to go on.