Lighters & Cigarette // Zayn Malik

CHAPTER: 14

Lighters & Cigarettes

Just put in your headphones and play the song mentioned in the last chapter.

Warning: This book contains swearing but you won't no8tce this change, but anyway if you do I'll probably dedicate a chapter to you. My d ods b in yo fvor, No Copyright Intended.

KyraBenson

I wanted to kill myself, and you were yelling about dirty dishes...

As the music began to drif smoothly out the earphone i stared up at the night sky. so dark and so mysterious with all its secrets and all its doubts. 

You look so wonderful in your dress
I love your hair like that
The way it falls on the side of your neck
Down your shoulders and back

his voice is soft and sweet. if i was into slow and peaceful music he would be my favorite.  but i wasn't, so he's not. i like it loud and powerful, enough to let my existence dissolve itself.  once i let the lyrics make sense, i turn my head in his direction, only to find him there, already, staring into my soul. his head rests on his arm and he wears a face combined of awe and disbelief.

We are surrounded by all of these lies
And people who talk too much
You got the kind of look in your eyes
As if no one knows anything but us

i let out a small gasp realizing he was talking about us. right now. right here. this moment. He mouths the name 'dan' and we both laugh in the silence of the night.

The song plays and comes to an end and I just half smile at how he picked a song that he felt related to. But I smiled more at his way of presenting his feelings.

"We'd better get going!" I say and sit up. He mimics me.

"You know. I wasn't in love with you." He says and I felt my heart in my throat. I feel like im breaking, falling apart. Like all those time I was falling for him was just a lie. He was, after all, like all those before him. Why was I so stupid to believe him and why in the world did I ever let him in. I knew this would happen but I was too stupid. Wasn't I?

"But I am now. Only because your soul just died on my words" he speaks the truth and I can't stand that. "When are you gonna admit it?"

I make my way inside with him right beside me. a small cloud of frustration hovers over my head. I bid my goodbyes to Hannah and my dad. And then I head off to my mother for her turn.

"Goodbye Rachel" I say once I find her at the small bar.

"Goodbye Kyra" she says as I come up to hug her and then she whispers in my ear "slut"

I'm not sure if he heard or not but his grip on my back tightened once I pulled away from her. "Hope you stay well. I know I won't for the next few days, just saw you. Right?"

"Oh kyra. You doll"

"It was Nice to meet you, Rachel." Zayn says and just as we were about to leave, he remarks "the next time I see you how bout a few pounds less, eh?"

I laugh evilly we exit the house leaving a shocked woman in there.

"That was so rude of me. I should go back and apologize. Don't you think?" he says all nervous and tensed.

"No. I don't think you should" I say as I plant a kiss on the corner of his mouth. "You shouldn't apologize even if you accidental on purpose push her off a cliff."

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We took turns through the ride home. And at the end of it I woke up leaning on his shoulder wrapped in his jacket.