First Off, - A Short Story

Log 15

Today is the last day of school. I feel tired. I'm so tired.

Honestly I'm glad everything is ending, yet I'm not. It's really confusing.

I gave Louisa a goodbye card and I watched her being recognized for her grades. A couple of other friends joined as well, like Hesus, Ullr, and Zachary. I watched as I was with a few friends. I was hanging out with (Theodore,) Weston, Paxton, and a few other friends.

I could see Quinn in the corner of my eye and the girls; Page, Marianne and Ivy, were nowhere to be found. Honestly, this was a disappointing ending.

But it hurts.

Everything hurts but I'm glad it's over.

I mean, I already accepted that Louisa would leave, and here I am now. Watching her leave permanently. I didn't want to let go but now I did. And it was painful.

But everything ended.

I hope I don't fall again, or everything will repeat. And I don't want it to repeat.

I don't want to write in this journal anymore. This journal represents my literal love life and I don't like it. But it's alright honestly.

Now I could be better, but the pain still stands.

But I should learn to accept this.

I should accept this.

I'll accept this...