'Di Makita

• Epilogue •

Epilogue

Miguel Filemino Suarez

"Announcement, all freshmen students will have an assembly at the open court on Friday. Attendance is a must," she said.

I just looked at her. How I wish she was mine. I never had a crush before. Ngayon lang, tapos ang hirap pa abutin. Pakiramdam ko kahit kailan hindi ko maaabot ang level niya.

"What the-"

Kaagad na isinalpak ni Alfie sa bibig ko ang tinapay. "Gutom lang 'yan, dude."

Wala na akong ibang nagawa kung hindi kainin ang tinapay, sayang naman kung iluluwa ko. Maraming bata ang nagugutom. Alam ko, hindi naman sila mabubusog kung kumain ako... but at least you know that you're not wasting any food.

"Bakit ka ba tulala?" tanong niya.

"May meeting daw freshmen," I said instead. I looked at her again. She was on the stage, saying the announcement, while I'm here in the sea of people. Doon pa lang kitang kita ko na, na imposible kami. She was the representative for freshmen students of the campus and who am I, really?

I'm just Migo.

Just the guy who plays basketball.

I'm nothing compared to her.

"I won't attend," he said.

"Attendance is a must," I told him.

"So?"

"Nevermind," I said. There's really no sense in talking with someone like him. I don't know why I was friends with him in the very first place.

After the rosary, I headed to the gym while Alfie headed to his building. May training kasi kami ngayon para sa upcoming basketball season.

"Open!" I said.

Fabian passed me the ball.

I aimed for the ring and tried to shoot the ball. Alesso fistbumped with me when the ball whirled inside the ring. "Nice, nice," he said.

After the training, we just sat at the bleachers. I've been friends with them for so long, I don't know what I would do without them.

"Drink up," Greg said as he handed me a gatorade.

"Thanks," I said.

We were just looking at the court. "Wala ka bang crush?" biglang tanong ni Greg sa akin.

So random.

"Wala," I answered. "Why?"

"Crush ka nung crush ko, baka kasi mamaya crush mo rin. Bros before hoes, dude. Ekis 'yon."

I laughed. "Shoot your shot, Greg."

He nodded. "I will."

I really hope I had their confidence. Sana kaya ko rin umamin sa babaeng gusto ko. Sana may lakas din ako ng loob na lapitan siya at sabihing gusto ko siya. I wish it was that easy, but I guess I'm really just a loser for not even trying.

For years, I watched her from afar. I watched how passionate she was in being a leader. Everyone saw that, not only me... that's why years after she became the student body president.

Mas lalo lang akong nanliit sa sarili ko. Alfie kept on asking me who's my crush, but I gave him no answers. I'm a hundred percent sure that he would only tease me and make me confess to her. That's just how he is. Dahil wala siyang lovelife, lovelife ng iba ang ginagambala niya.

"Migo, we've been friends for years... if you tell me the truth, I will accept it. I promise," he dramatically said.

My forehead creased. "What?"