Phan Fiction Dan and Phil

chapter 1- Do I love you?

Dan pov

Jessica: "And we can move to Brighton and have a family there. We will have three kids and we will get married and own a big house- Dan what the fuck are you even listening to me

Dan: What- I'm sorry babe. I'm thinking of something to make a video about."

Jessica: "Well I have an idea. We could maybe finally tell your viewers about us. I mean it has been 9 months."

Dan: "Yeah maybe but I don't know if most of my viewers would be OK with it. But I'll think about it.

She left the room and I felt horrible. I want to tell her that I am in love with someone else and that I want to break up. But every time I see her beautiful face I just can't do it.

Phil Pov

I could hear Jessica in Dan's room just talking about their future and when he is going to leave me. Dan just means so much to me and I love him to much. If he leaves I don't think that I will be able to live anymore. He as helped me so much. He has saved my life many times. Every time I want to start cutting again he is always there for me. 

I have suffered from depresson since I was a second year. When I met Dan, he helped me so much that I stopped cutting.

I heard Jessica slam the door and leave out flat. I walked down the hall to go ask Dan what happened. Before I knocked I could hear him crying very quietly. I wanted to know what was wrong so bad. I knocked on his door...

Phil: "Hey Dan are you okay I heard Jessica leave and slam the door?"

Dan: "Yeah I'm fine do you wanna come in?"

Phil: "Ok"

I went into his room and saw his red puffy eyes. I wanted to cry just seeing him like that.

I went in into his room and sat on his bed with him. He kept on crying into his pillow.

Phil: "Hey are you okay?"

Dan: "Yeah I guess"

Phil: "Did you and Jessica break up?"

Dan: "No but I want to break up with her and I just don't know how."

Phil: "Just tell her. I'm sure she will understand"

Dan: "Yeah thanks for being there for me."

Phil: "You don't have to think me. I'm your best friend that is what I am here for.

I look into his eyes. He starts to lean in. I lean in too. I close my eyes. Our lips touching each other feels amazing. I want to stay like this forever. Then I start to realize.. I am kissing my best friend that is a guy. I'm not gay. I pull away and run out of his room in tears.

Dan pov

I lean in and kiss him. I didn't know if he was going to kiss back but he did. We start to passionately kiss for two minutes until he pulls away and runs out of my riim in tears.

I start to wonder. What did I do? Does he hate me now? Does he like me in the way I like him? Will he ever like me in that way? Am I gay? Is he gay? What will happen to our friendship? Is he going to cut again? What if he cuts again? What will happen if he tries to kill himself?

I really hope that I didn't kill our friendship by doing that.

My phone starts ringings. I look at it. Its says Jessica aka my love. I want to throw my phone at the wall. But being the good guy that I am, I answer it.

Jessica: "Hey babe I'm so sorry that I freaked out like that. I totally understand if you want to keep our relationship on the DL."

Dan: "Um okay."

Jessica: "Are you okay I mean you seem pretty upset after I left."

Dan: "Jessica, we need to talk. Ummm can you come over again today or like as soon as you can tomorrow?"

Jessica: "Yeah of course. I can come over in like an hour if that is ok."

Dan: "Thanks I love you Jessi bear."

Jessica: "I love you too my danasour."

I hang up and I feel pretty good about myself. I start to think about Phil and I. I'm not gay. I them remeber something that I bought for my last girlfriend a long tme ago. I went into my wardrobe and grabbed a small black box from the top. I was going to propose to Jessica tonight.

I knew I would have to make it special but I only had 45 minutes.

So I threw on my best suit and tie and I ordered some chinese food and light candles in the dining room. I put a red and whie tablecloth on the table and when the food got here, I put it on our best plates.

Jessica finally got here. She knock and I told her it was open. She sat down at the table.

Dan: "I wanted to make this very special for tonight. But before I say what I invited you here to say, I want to tell everyone that you are my girlfriend. I want to tell the world and all my subscirbers that I love you.

Phil pov

I was going to go to get some food from the kitchen but as I was walking I hear

"I wanted to make this very special for tonight. But before I say what I invited you here to say, I want to tell everyone that you are my girlfriend. I want to tell the world and all my subscribers that I love you."

After I heard that I ran back into my room and started to cry. I thought that he was going to break up with her. I thought he loved me. I guess I was wrong.

Phil you know that you are too ugly for anyone to love you. I quietly walked to the bathroom and found the first razor that I could and took it apart. I cut into my skin for the first time for maybe a year. It felt soo good.

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A/n

So yeah this is my new story. I deleted my last one because it wasn't going anywhere. So I decided to start this one I think I already Have some ideas for this one and I think it is going to be good I guess so i think that is it. byeeee stay sexi danasours <3