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When school began

The first day back to school , I get there a little late but I go to my advisory and find out that my best friend in the world(my gay lover, my partner in crime, my sister) was in my advisory, it was the best moment cause I knew the year was already gonna be amazing! As the first few days of school go bye I find out that we were(the boy and I ...and of course my best friend too) in most of the same classes which at first I didn't hate it, but then again I didn't love it. But He starts to text me almost everyday after school, it was pretty cool.
About a week and a few more days go bye and we have a fire drill. Well since about lunch time me and my best friend were having a competition who get the most hi's(hello's basically) from people. Well we were still doing it by the time sixth period comes around(which is right after lunch). Sixth period was one of the classes I didn't have with him so when we walked out to the field for the fire drill , he was in the line next to us. So I started screaming hi to him(at this time I didn't like him) and he screamed back. Then my best friend started to scream to others and I told those people not to say hi to her but to say hi to me. Then I started screaming hi to him again and I started waving my arms, so he did the same. But then my best friend told him not to say hi to me but I kept saying hi to him and he kept saying it back.
Of course I didn't realize that at that moment I started liking him until we started talking way more. We talked for almost hours at a time, even tho sometimes it was about nothing. One day when we started talking , he asked me who i liked , of course by this time I knew I liked him a lot and its not like I'm just going to tell him straight up. I kinda made him work for it. But i at first I played it like I didn't have a crush, so when he asked me I said I liked my dog.
Of course he knew me well enough that , that was a lie. So I said to him that he most likely doesnt, almost definitly that the guy i like doesn't like me back. But he replied back I bet he does. I just kept telling him that he probably doesn't even notice me or know I exist. But as he keeps bugging me about it I keep asking him who he likes. Well of course he's told me one of them but I didn't believe him because I already know that he only likes her as a friend. But we both agreed that he would say who he liked then I would tell him who i like.
Once I saw the text that says he likes me, I automatically smile, it was biggested smile I had , had on my face for awhile. I literally couldn't stop smiling for hours. But When went to school the next day, we were picking teams to be on for p.e. and he chose my team. I was so nervous that I wasnt even playing the game right. Then when we sat out on the wall for break, sat down and he sat right next to me, I mean he was super close like we were so close of touching. It kinda scared me but I loved it. The excitement of him not being afraid to be around me even though he knows ,I know, that he likes me.
But yet I get so afraid, i get even more butterflies when he notices that I'm nervous, then I get even nervous more around him, but yet he doesn't care, he actually thinks its cute. Which of course I don't understand how getting butterflies is cute. But he comforts me when he notices I get nervous. They way he comforts me is just amazing, his smiles at me like its all gonna be okay, or when he talks to me he gets me to look into his eyes , and the way that he looks at me with them , just makes my heart melt.