My internet dairies

The Hug

   One of the nights me and him were texting , I was video chatting with another friend at the same time. Her and I both thought popcorn sounded good at the time so we both went and made some popcorn for our selves. As I let the popsorn pop in the microwave I went back to my room to video chat her and text him. But when I go grab my popcorn it was burnt!! I was so dissapointed. I told him that I burnt my popcorn. He tried to comfort, which was sweet. As I said it wasn't enough love. He didnt know what I wanted, so I said straight up that I want a real hug. I had hope that he wanted a real one too.
  When he told he was a long hugger. And I just kept thinking about that. I thought about how much I love long hugs. Or how warm i'd feel in his arms. I kept thinking and thinking about how I'd feel in his arms, like warm, safe, comfortable. What would make a hug from him even more amazing is that he's taller than me, but I'm not still not super short.
  Because of that I would be able to put my head on his chest and really feel his warmth, I would be able to hear his heart beat. Or I would have to go on my tippy toes to hug him cause then I could put my head/chin on his shoulder. I thought out all these scenarios , what could happen when we hug. I thought about when I should get/ask for my hug.
  But of course I had to be so stupid and never get that hug. I still think about asking him for one. Or write on a note or something of his saying that he still owes me that hug.

   But one day I will get that hug , and after that it won't be only one hug it will be a million. Then it'll stop being hugs but kisses.