I'm not sure where to begin. We met in middle school and I should have known then that you would be a toxic friend when you knowingly dated the boy I liked. But we drifted apart for a while anyways so I didn't give it a 2nd thought. A few years later in high school we got really close again and became basically inseparable. It was really great at first but I let you take control of my feelings and thoughts and I did a lot for you because of your mental and emotional states and I wasn't great at standing up for myself. It's hard to look back on now the times I dropped things for you and I truely never got that same energy in return. We were on again off again friends for a long time and I got used at your convenience. Told I never did anything for you even though I gave you more than I gave myself. And good lord did I make my own mistakes in our friendship and I'm sorry for the things I did and said that hurt you. And it's sad to think about now but you taught me a lesson. Helped me get my back bone. We may not be friends anymore but I'll always have a soft spot for you. You were special to me at one point in time and I'll never forget the lessons learned so thank you.
