𝒲𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒲ℴ𝓊𝓁𝒹 ℐ 𝒟ℴ 𝒲𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝒪𝓊𝓉 𝒴ℴ𝓊

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 1

Word: 844 oofy I wanted to get to 1074 eef

Butters P.O.V

I sat in the passengers seat of my mothers car i look through the window as the music play in the back round , i watched as all the trees pass us by , i sighed to myself but my mom on the other hand looked forward for this change that was going to happen in are lives , but i knew that the only thing that was going to change was that my father wasn't going to be in the picture,  that was the only thing i was happy about , i knew things were going to be the same no matter where we move i always find myself to be that kid that no one really likes to hang around and if someone were to hang around me all they want is the answer to the homework they never did the night before or make me do there homework , and if i were to even try to say no at the end i'll either get beat up or get humiliated in front of the whole school , i forced more more in to my thoughts about my past and i could hear my mom try to talk to me "butters honey i know its gonna be a new adjustment and it might take time but this going to be better for me and you " i looked at her and i could see the small smile on her face as she was more focus on the road then me, i looked back at the window i had a small smile on my face as i watched the birds fly by "maybe this well be better" i thought to myself.

~𝐵𝑎𝑐𝑘𝑆𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑦 𝐷𝑒𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑊𝑎𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔~

butters Father was an abusive man, he abusive toward him and his mother more towards him them his mother , after years of torment his father put on him , he had enough and he attempted to commit suicide , he deiced to OD on some of his fathers pilled that he never took, grabbed the pills and head to his bed room it was 2:34 AM , he went to his desk and wrote out his letter:

To who ever finds this most likely my mom but anyways I'll make it short so I don't waste your time , if I were to be honest I never had the happiest life and I could blame a lot of people for it but if I did that I put guilt on people and that's not me like me...

Who knew writing this could be hard , maybe cause I never had anything good in my life that I could dedicate to.

(idk what to put im sorry '-' )

~𝐸𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟~

Butters laugh slightly at what he put down knowing no well care enough to read it but his mother , he sighed " welp time to go I guess, I had a nice life" he sighed "yeah nice life" he chuckled he got up from his desk and grabbed the glass water he had form the night before then he went back to his desk and put the glass down , he grabbed the pill bottle and pop opened the lid and took one pill then another and continued until there was none left , he started to feel his breathing slow down so did his heart he smiled 'it worked' he thought , he got up from his desk and went to his bed and lay down , soon bubbles came out his mouth and he stopped breathing seconds after he closed his eyes though he felt like he was choking he felt at peace for once in his life , butters soon started to hear very loud noises, it soon gave him a headache , the loud noises soon turned in to a load ringing he tried covering his ears but it only got worst when he tried " IT HURTS PLEASE STOP" he cried.

Butters soon woke up in a hospital bed in a sweat he looked around frantically , then he saw his mother on the hospital couch asleep he decided to let her sleep and wait for answers when she's awake , he looked at his wrist and felt the cuts he made he still felt bad about what he did, people said cutting was other way to just get away from there problems or another way to feel something but for butters he didn't feel any of these things when he did it, All it did was make him cry he felt ashamed of what he did but he kept doing it even if promised himself to never do it again but he at the end he found he self doing it. And because the one person who was supposed to take care of him the person the was supposed his role model decided to take his feelings.

The next day butters mother told him what happened and after that she soon filed a divorce papers to her husband , after that it lead up to where they are now moving to another place to get away from the past and start new.