I'm tired of feeling comatose
I've lost the me that I loved most
I'm barely holding on to smoke
I'm not addicted but I'm not clean
Why do I do this to myself on repeat?
So disconnected from my own reality
Am I man or machine?
If I give, will you take?
As I lie for the taste
I just fuck it up as you lap it up
(Go)
Through flesh and bone, I walk alone
(Go)
If I run, will I fade away?
'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind
In all my pride
All my shame
I find strength enough to show you
I may bend
But I won't break
'Cause I define who I, define who I become
I miss the me that I have not met
Choking in silence on the words left unsaid
I feel a sickness for a home I've never been
And I exist in black and white but now I'm seeing red
I built a shelter in complacency
Locked myself in and set fire and threw away the key
Too scared to live, but I'm afraid to die
So am I living or am I just alive?
All my pride, all my shame
I find strength, enough to show you
I may bend
But I won't break
I define who I become
'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
I've lost the me that I loved most
I'm barely holding on to smoke
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
Broken, (but) I'm holding on
Driven, to right the wrong
Silent, connected yet I feel so separated
Fallen, through flesh and bone
Frozen, I stand alone
Deafened, in silence, the voice remains
Behind my eyes
Beneath my rage
I was struggling to get through
Out of time
And out of faith
I define who I become
In all my pride
All my shame
I find strength, enough to show you
I may bend
But I won't break
'Cause I define who I, define who I become
I'm tired of feeling comatose
I lost the me that I loved most
I'm barely holding on to smoke
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
I'm tired of being human
Tired of being numb
Waiting for the "holy ghost" to come
So save me from the webs that I have spun
I'm holding on, holding on
