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After being separated by morals, by death, and at last by duties, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji find themselves with an empty space in their lives and an unexplained longing to see each other again.
With everything they have been through, t...
"What's the difference?" I asked him. "Between the love of your life, and your soulmate?" "One is a choice, and one is not." ― Tarryn Fisher,
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Wei Wuxian
I walk along the streets of Yiling trying to find something interesting to do. The past few days were... insignificant. All I did was deal with a few fierce corpses. Every part of my body and soul wants to find some adventure. But looks like the odds are not in my favor.
I pass a few men selling fake talismans who proclaim to be the Yiling Patriarchs. Well, they never seem to get tired of it. I remember watching them with Wen Ning back then. We used to compare who acts the best, and who looks similar. I have to admit it was fun, even though the idea of me looking like one of them almost made me cringe. How can they even think that I'd spend my day selling talismans on the streets? Right, here I am, probably looking even worse than them, having no place to go.
I wonder what Lan Zhan would say if he was here. Surely it will be 'Extremely Boring' or 'Shameless'. Lan Zhan and his monosyllabic vocabulary, I never understood why I didn't grow tired of it.
Walking towards a vendor I ask for details about anything strange that happened.
"Not at all, Childe, not at all. The past few days were peaceful. The talismans they sell around the town worked. One of them seems to be The Yiling Patriarch."
"Huh! I mean yes." I reply and leave. It seems I need to build up my reputation.
I groan as I move towards the tavern.
***
I can't help but go through my dark memories as I drink from my jar of liquor sitting on a branch of a tree. I don't know for how long I've been up here. It's been a while since it got dark, so it should probably be the second half of the night.
The wind is cold, but it keeps me from being lost in my head. I always try to keep my bad memories locked in a corner of my mind. That way they won't affect my daily life. But once in a while, they slip out, like today.
I sit and get ready to meditate. But the process scares me. In a way I thought is impossible. It's fair that cultivators fear towards Burial mounds. The resentment energy here is worse than the stories explain.
Every time I close my eyes thousands of voices scream right into my head. It's unbearable. It's driving me to insanity. Sometimes I feel the last bit of humanity slip out of me. What will I become if I go more further? Will I be as inhuman as We Ruohan?
That terrifies me the most. But I've got no choice. I must do this. If I don't cultivate this energy, it will consume me.
A voice laughs 'What are you without your Golden Core? You're useless Wei Wuxian'
I close my eyes. And then it starts
'Wei Wuxian, you're nothing... You abandoned them... WEI WUXIAN!! You're worthless. There's nothing you can do...'
I desperately seek for that one voice that brings me comfort.
'Wei Wuxian' No not that
'Xian Xian' No...
'Wei Ying' There it is...
It took me some time to figure whose voice it was. It was his voice. Strange, how it kept me sane back then when I wasn't even aware of my feelings. But I know one thing for sure. With him, I can survive anything.
***
I've been living in my cave in Burial Mounds for some time now. The cave is much neater than it has been in the past. Guess spending time with Lan Zhan influenced me after all.
I've been working on new talismans and new techniques that can be used with less spiritual power. I was successful in most of my attempts. I look around the cave looking for something to do.
How did my cave become this uninteresting...
I take a jar of liquor. That doesn't seem interesting either. Only if Lan Zhan was here. I laugh remembering the day he got drunk. He didn't even look drunk.
"Listen to the heartbeat." He said.
Seeing the most respected Hanguang Jun acting like a kid...
"Lan Zhan, Lan Zhan..."I laugh out loud.
Unable to find anything to do I decide to walk along the mountains. Taking Chenqing and tucking it to my belt, I walk out of the cave.
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