Promises

chapter twenty

Bailey's POV

I've fucked up so bad. Jack dosent want me and my dumbass broke up with Sammy. I can't put up with this anymore. I go to the bathroom and lock it. I usually don't ever have these thoughts but I'm so confused right now and I don't think I should be here, I'm, I'm just such a fuck up. I take one pill out the bottle and I look at it "for Sam," I start to cry and I let the pill fall in my mouth, I take another "f-for Jack," I throw it in sobbing and grabbing a another pill "f-for m-my dad." I threw it in my mouth crying and thinking how much of a fuck up I am. I hear the door to the hotel room open, it's probably just Jack, I slip another pill in my mouth. "Bailey? Bailey are you here?" It's Sammy. I look at the door and put another pill in my mouth. I shake my head. I grab another one hoping I could die before Sam figures out I'm in here. I accidentally hit my elbow on the cabinet grabbing the bottle creating a loud noise. "Bailey?" I hear Sam outside the door and he tries to open it. "Bailey what are you doing?" I don't say anything because I can't. "Bailey open up." He gets more worry in his voice. I look in the bottle only two more pills, why not eat them all? "BAILEY!" He bangs the door and I swallow both the pills I look up at the wall of the shower and I see nothing but blurs. Maybe this is the end maybe I'll live a happier life now. I look to the bathroom door as it has been kicked open. I look at Sam, he's a gigantic blur and I'm not too sure if he's mad or sad. "Bailey, why?" I look at him and tilt my head. He walks over to me and bends down to be level with me. He grabs the bottle. I can clearly see his emotions now his eyes water. "Bailey." His voice is shaky. "Why?" I can't speak I just look at him, still slightly a blur. "How many did you take?" His words still shaky I slowly bring up my hands to count. One finger. Two fingers. Four fingers. Five fingers. Six fingers. Seven fingers. I look up at Sam and he has a hand over his mouth. I start to feel like I need to sleep so I slowly close my eyes. "No, Bailey you stay awake." Sam grabs me and helps me up I stumble but he catches me. I thought this would be over. "Bailey did you eat anything?" I shake my head. "Look Bailey, we're going to McDonald's and I'm getting you food but I need to to stay awake with me okay?" I look up at Sammy who's eyes are red and puffy. I mange to finally speak but it come out so softly almost like a whisper "No promises."

Sam's POV

I took a deep breath and looked at Bailey, she probably thinks she's a mess. But she's not. I'm pretty upset I wasn't here to comfort her, even if we are on a break, I still feel I should take care of her because I love her too much. Gilinsky was supposed to be checking on her. I told him. If I hadn't come home now she probably would have been dead by now. I walk Bailey to the car we rented I put her in the passenger seat and buckle her seat belt. I run to the other side of the car and jump in I grab Bailey's hand "Bailey stay with me, please." She turns her head to me slowly and nods. I pulled out my phone and texted Gilinsky.

Gilinsky
What the fuck man why haven't you been checking up on Bailey?

I locked my phone and left it in my lap and looked at Bailey. "Bailey, open your eyes please, please stay awake." I put the keys in the ignition and put on my seat belt. My left hand on the wheel and my right hand in Bailey's hand. I drove to the nearest McDonald's. I ordered Bailey chicken nuggets, fries and a soda.

Sam
I did check on her.

Gilinsky
Obviously not.

Sam
What are you talking about?

Gilinsky
Jack, she nearly died 20 minutes ago.

Sam
No she didn't don't bs me Sam...

Gilinsky
WHY WOULD I BULL SHIT YOU ABOUT THAT? SHE TOOK SEVEN PILLS AND SHE NEARLY DIED IF I HADN'T COME HOME SHE WOULD HAVE DIED.

Sam
I came and she was fine.

Gilinsky
What did you do to her? What happened?

Sam
What did I do? I did nothing!

Gilinsky
Bull shit.

Sam
You don't believe me?

Gilinsky
No.

Sam
Well it's true and if you don't believe me ask Bailey.

Gilinsky
She can't even talk.
She thinks she's a mess and it's your fault.

Sam
HOW THE HELL IS IT MY FAULT? I WAS THERE TO COMFORT HER WHEN YOUR DUMBASS FUCKED UP. SHE CAME TO ME. HAS SHE EVER COME TO YOU FOR PROBLEMS WITH ME? NO. NEVER. YOU THINK YOU'RE A GREAT BOYFRIEND TO HER BUT YOU AREN'T. YOU FUCK UP SO MUCH SAM. AND I KNEW SHE WON'T LISTEN TO ME WHEN I TELL HER THAT YOUR NO GOOD FOR HER BECAUSE SHE LOVES YOU ALOT BUT SHE DOESN'T KNOW YOUR PAST LIKE I DO. YOU JUST LIKE TO FUCK AROUND. YOU TELL GIRLS YOU LOVE THEM AND YOU CALL THEM YOURS BUT THEN YOU GO AND HAVE DRINKS WITH OUT THEM AND YOU FUCK AROUND WITH OTHER GIRLS. YOUR REPUTATION IS A PLAYER SAM AND EVERYONE KNOWS IT. EVEN BAILEY BUT SHE DOESN'T WANT TO LOOK AT IT LIKE THAT. SHE THINKS YOU ACTUALLY CARE.

Gilinsky
I do care for Bailey...

Sam
No you don't. If you did you wouldn't have fucked up and be put in this situation.

Gilinsky
You know what fuck you. I love Bailey. I'll take care of her and I'll prove to everyone that im not the player anymore. I promise you'll regret ever saying that I never loved Bailey and take back everything you just said.

Sam
HA . Whatever Sam. Bailey will eventually realize what's good for her.

I locked my phone and stuck it back in my pocket. "Bailey can you eat?" she nods slowly. I pull up to the hotel and carry Bailey in. I left her sitting on the kitchen counter and let her eat while I went to the bathroom. I hurried so I could watch her eat and prevent her from sleeping. I stand across from her leaning on the counter and I watch her eat her food and her eyes flutter close from time to time. "Bailey," she looks up at me "you know I love you right?" She blinks twice and nods. "Bailey why'd you do this?" She looks at her food then me "I got confused." I look her in the eyes. "About what?" "Why do you care?" She asked weakly. "I just- I- because I do. Please tell me." I straighten up. She shakes her head. "Bailey please." I walked to her and rested my hand on her thigh and she looks at it and I remember just a few hours ago her tracing my jawline telling me she admired me so much. Where is that Bailey? "I don't know Sam." "What?" "I don't know what happened to me. I don't know." I sigh "Baby please, give me another chance. I'm nothing without you." She looks at me and her eyes water. "I don't know." I shake my head and look down at the floor placing my hand on each side of the counter Bailey sits on. I heard the door open and I slowly look up.

Gilinsky.