Love, hate, depression, sadness

Getting back together

You were one of those I wanted to spend the rest of my life with ... you were my choice and I was happy you chose me too.
I have no one else to rely on.
I told you before and I'mma tell you again.. I will always love you because you were my first real boyfriend..
I don't care about any girl you'd be with I just want you.
I want to spend the nights like this with you. A little bit of wine, having fun and having sex ...
if you don't want it just tell me and don't play with me.
I know you want me back too, I know you rather be friends with benefits because you don't want to hurt me, but you are.
You are hurting me with these things, you are hurting me with your look of misery, with your kisses, with all of the things you are doing to me.
Please just stop playing with me.
I love you
I will always love you
I will remember that day because I feel so insecure about myself, but with you it's all gone, with you I feel so pretty, you make me feel pretty.
And now you've done this.
I get what you want and I also get why you don't want to hurt either of us.
I am greatful for that but you are still hurting me.
You don't even know how much it hurts.
Be with me. Be just mine.
And I'll be yours. I don't care for how long, I just want your arms around me, feel you kisses and saying how much you love me. Because I love you. And I'll never stop.