fuck boy-pm

part 14

I wake up and get ready for the day and wear something comfy because it's Friday and it's also
Anthony's and I's best friend anniversary tomorrow but today is all about trying to explain the situation to Payton

*skip time to when she's at school*

I walk in and go straight to Payton's locker when he turns to me I start to speak until he walks away from me and goes to class

{this is gonna be harder than I thought}

I walk into class and sit next to Payton I try to talk to him AgAiN and he just puts his headphones in

{did I really hurt him that bad}

*skip time to when schools over*

When school was over I walk over to Payton's house I knocked and heard nothing

{you know what he needs some space I just need to leave him alone}

*the next day*
Saturday 9:49 pm at night

I get ready for Anthonys and I's anniversary (as besties)

*skip time to when you're in the car*

When we were in the car I told Anthony everything about how I felt about us drifting apart and he said

A-I'm sorry this is all my fault I'm a bad friend

Y/n-no ant you aren't its just we grow up and move on and I have to except it

A-thanks (your nickname)

Y/n-no problem ant

A-anyways how are you and Payton

When he asked me that question I felt like crying {do I like him? You know what I don't like him i love him and I couldn't believe I just realized this}I started to cry when ant noticed he asked me what happened when I finished explaining to him he said

A-forget about him it's OUR day and if he doesn't want to talk to you I hope he knows he's losing a very beautiful,talented,and amazing person

Y/n-thanks ant I hope he forgives me some day

*skip time to when there in the theater room*

When we sit down I see someone that looks familiar in front of me but I ignore it when the movie was almost done I see them leave and go somewhere but then again I ignore it I told ant I had to go to the restrooms when I walk in the restrooms I see....

Payton making out with RILEY why Riley? She used to hang out with me and Anthony until she got popular because of avani and told me "your not popular enough so we can't hang out anymore" when they saw me I had tears falling down my face so I ran away into the theater room to told Anthony if we can go home he said

A-yeah sure did anything happen it looks like you were crying

Y/n-yeah *sniffles* I'm fine I'll explain it to you in the car

When we start to walk out someone turns me around and I saw Payton

Y/n-Payton what do you want *sniffles*

P-y/n why are you crying over Riley and I? You have jaden why don't you go and make out with him again might as well f*ck him while your at it he says

Y/n-ok first of all I don't even like Jaden like that when he kissed me I pushed him off of me and said I only see him as a friend and I started crying because I realized I was in love with you but I guess you moved on how bout you go ahead and FUCK HER bye Payton

And with that I left with Anthony and told him everything that happened when he dropped me of he said

A-don't let one boy break your heart y/n goodnight he said and left already

I walk into my room and change then lay down and listen to some music and start to cry

Why does it hurt to love someone? Why does love exist? Why me? Why did it have to be him? Is this how love feels? I felt empty,sad,and angry this boy needs to stop making my fucking heart tingle up and shit

I kept crying until I closed my eyes and fell asleep heartbroken💔

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This chapter kinda sucks and also short but next chapter is gonna be better I promise :) bye bebes✌️😘