Always & Forever

Part 4

Sidharth was looking through the circular window that was attached to the ICU door where he could see Shehnaz, lifeless and motionless with numerous of wires and tubes connected to her. Doctors were shouting about some medical terms while injecting her. Everyone's working fast, but for him, it was all happening in slow motion. He turned his face because he was not able to see her condition.

He rushed to the hospital as soon as he heard the news. And when nurse told about Shehnaz's conditions, he was taken aback.

'When I came to her room, she was struggling with breathing'

He was not able to react anything at that time. He wanted to ask more but words were not coming out his mouth. He ran his hand through his hairs as his mind flooding with innumerous thoughts which he didn't even want to imagine.

With each passing minute, he was feeling restless. And again the same thoughts started running in his mind again and again. 'Were they telling the truth? Will Shehnaz really...?' These thoughts were making him more and more weak.

'Let her go sidharth, She will not come back'

A wave of panic flashed through him again when those words started ringing in his ears. He covered his ears with his hands and mumbled 'Shehnaz' to stop listening to the constant words. And as soon as Shehnaz's name came to his lips, he calmed down and the time and moments he spent with Shehnaz came before his eyes like a slide show.
 
'Sidharth, agar main kahi chali gayi toh tum mujhe wapas le ayoge na'

Realization hit him hard when these words of her came to his mind. 'What he was doing? He was literally ignoring  her from past two days. Why he wasn't trying. Is this the reason her health got worse' he was cursing himself.

He remember he didn't talk to her when she slipped into coma, just used to sit quietly with her. But one day when doctor aksed him that 'Try to talk to Shehnaz, talking with patients can improve their health' that day he felt he was breathing again. From that day he started talking to her. And from the same day Shehnaz also strated responding to the treament. 'But what is he doing now? Why wasn't he talking to her? Why he is letting those words to affect himself?' Those words which Shefali and Arti said to him at Vikas's place.

Actually Vikas had invited some of BB contestent to his place for Get Together as it had been a long time since they met, specially Sidharth. After several requests from Vikas, Sidharth decided to go there.

*Flashback*

Sidharth was sitting on a corner silently with mobile in his hand and staring at Shehnaz's picture when Shefali and Arti came to him asked him about Shehnaz. He was totally ignoring them as he was not interested to talking to them specially about Shehnaz. But then Shefali said something that made him angry.

"Sid I think you should move on now. I don't think ke woh ab kabhi theek hogi"

"What are you saying? Tumhe pata bhi hai tum kya bol rahi ho?"

"Sid tum itna kyu react kar rahe ho? Main toh bas fact bata rahi hoon" he was about to say something when Arti interrupted him by saying,

"Shefali sahi toh keh rahi hai Sid, even humare relatives mein bhi ek aisa case tha. Woh bhi kabhi coma se nahi utha.. infact uski coma mein hi death ho gyi thi"

He was already broken and these words were hurting him even more. He was so shocked to hear his so-called friends. How can they even speak like this? He wanted to yell at them but couldnt because when it comes to Shehnaz he become vulnerable. Seeing his vulnerability, Shefali smirked and tried to break him more.

"Aur woh toh waise bhi tujh pe flip marti rehti hai, is bar usne permanent flip..." before she could complete her statement, someone pulled her harshly.