An orthodox girl!

I always presumed that I was an orthodox girl until life challenged me with some real instances ,where the way I reacted to them was out of the blue  !I was brought up in a very conservative family which beholds a certain set of values and traditions all these years .I had the privilege of learning the importance of such values and I wanted it to carry forward it all through my life !Although i did not adhere to all such traditions and values as I felt that there are a few such traditions and values which  were not right according to my conscience ,which I owe it to my experiences that this real world taught me .yes!inspite of carrying forward the legacy of such traditions ,I had my own  free and wild thoughts and I have always wanted them to be free from such stereotyping and preconceived judgmements it had with them all along!there was a basic rule book for everything to look out for in that which had its own way of consent and dissent for certain things with its own explanations!I must admit that a few were not in terms with my own conscience !I as a person have always done things according to my inner conscience which were to a certain extent influenced by the rule book imposed upon me right from when I was a child .But the rules in the rule book kept evolving gradually according to my real experiences with life and I had to adapt to them as my life unfolded gracefully ! There were deletions,changes ,inclusions and all such stuffs done by me after giving them a good scrutiny!But the primitive core values which I felt right never changed and im sure it will never will change ,even in the future!such deep rooted core values which I find right are deep rooted in every inch of my soul.There were times  when I judged people with those rules in my book and I was left totally awry by their actions.They were far more than that and some persons did impeccable justice to my book of rules by proving them  just right.I have met both kinds of people all through my life.Then there were moments where the love and respect I had for few persons were large enough than all such rules which made me to not judge them according to these rules instead I had the privilege of empathising with that person and understanding them from their shoes.my love and respect , their personalities etched in my heart was all worth it! My soul left me free from all such judgements and I just felt what was right at the moment free from all such rules.I have taken such significant decisions in my life which were impromptu far apart from my rule book which sometimes left me devastated.I was shattered to pieces by a few for believing in some glib talks which would not have been  certainly me in the first place!But life has its own way of teaching us lessons and preparing us for something greater in life .The same decisions I made consciously against my rule book has taught me the importance of accepting things as they are and rising again from such failures or moments of lows In life due to taking such risks which were heartfelt all way!It has taught me the greatness of not holding a grudge and forgiving and wishing the person who caused me pain nothing but all good things in life and still have that respect for that person for who I believed they were and for the fond memories they gave me all along!After all what is life without such surprises!Life would be  so boring with such predictability and monotonous melancholy!Thank you for the lessons and surprises!Some people are not meant to be in our rule books but they might be someone greater than that as a personality which will make u ditch the rule book all over once again!I still believe in such magical moments and Iam hoping to meet one such person who can make me fall for them all way!Afterall , I wasn't the orthodox girl!Well , some people are worth melting for and I'm in a quest to find one such!