Lunar Eclipse

Naomi and Sheldon

I wish accusing Naomi as slut could be the end of my guilt. No it wasnt the end. It was just starting. After that incident I did a lot of things for being guilty. Its not always about why I did that. Its also sometimes about why I didnt. I still cry and have nightmares for all these deeds. I often feel like why I didnt say that; why didnt I do that... Fuck why I even did that. My deeds and words still haunt me.

Small distraction from story and an annoying note from author.

***trust me I am very bad at expressing my emotions but if I could only describe everything the way I want to describe probably readers would cry. But unfortunately I am a perfect failure who can basically do nothing good. Surely a curse for everyone. Today I realized I am good for nothing and people like me in this world is nothing but few waste that everyone should burn. I wish I can just erase my existence. If I am still writing this novel just only because I dont want to let my friend down. Lumyea inspired me for writing this. I cant let her down. At least once in this life I want to be a little bit useful. I am sorry for this small distraction from the story. I hope the readers will forgive me as I am really having a bad day. ***

So yes accusing Naomi was just a starting. Its started getting miserable day by day. When I told Sheldon that Stella likes you he said tell her to propose me Sheldon literally do have a huge ego. He wont ever propose Stella again. Sheldon clearly announced between Stella and Naomi whoever will propose him first he will accept her. When I said that to Stella; Stella clearly denied to propose Sheldon after she has a huge self-respect. I was worried what will happen to Stella if Naomi and Sheldon get into a relationship and I was worried because I thought Naomi was a slut believing in those rumors.

As I said before I already had a small cold war going with Anna plebe and again at the same time Anna was Naomis best friend.

*** I will tell about Anna plebe later on***

Basically Anna had a huge group of friends. Among them more or less were the bad bitches. Just because I was telling Sheldon to stay away from Naomi, I totally start becoming their prey. I was kind of bullied by them. Now here starts my miserable middle school life full of bullies around me.

*Now probably you are thinking a bad boy from the group of bad bitches will appear and save the Cinderella then you are wrong. It was me who had to fight alone without having anyone beside her. I am not complaining to be honest I am just used to this way having no one and expecting nothing from anyone.*

Funny enough when I am walking with Stella now I am still feeling guilty. Poor Stella right now we were happy and again sad. Stella now saying me to stop thinking about those memories. So we are now at SARAHS. After having favorite burger with cheese filled with it my heart calmed a bit. But after a few moments later Sheldon and Naomi entered SARAHS and looking at them those memories start eating my brain again.

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***If I am being honest and if u ask me why romance novel contain this type of content and why there is no bad boy saving the princess then hold on readers there will be a prince saving the princess but not now. Now its time for the teenager girl to fight her own problems. Girls dont always need a hero to save her. We; girls can fight alone this destructive world ***