Complicated

Chapter 1

"I WONT BE SILENCEDDDD YOU CANT KEEP MY QUIET-"

"OH FOR GODS SAKE CHERISH SHUT UP"

"-ALL I KNOW IS I WONT GO SPEECHLESS"

Restraining herself from throwing something at my little sister, Chyler rolled her eyes and quickly paced to the living room with the tray of biscuits and tea.

Yes, tea, at 7 pm, what better ways to calm ourselves down and shut away the high pitched inhuman noises coming from the nine year old wannabe Disney princess. I know I shouldn't destroy her dreams, but I fancy my ears very much so..

"I really regret showing her Aladdin yesterday, I swear to God she hasn't shut up ALL DAY" I complained to her while stirring the two spoons of sugar in my tea, Chyler let out a dry laugh, it wasn't humorous in anyway

Which I don't blame her for, me and Cherish have only been here for 2 hours, and the adolescent has already become a pain in the ass. Right now we're just sitting in the living room of miss, or should I say Mrs. Chyler Devin. If there is anything in my life that hasn't gone wrong in the last year, is that she is still my best friend.

"Anyways let's ignore princess Jasmine over there, how's the job hunting going?" She asked sipping the tea from this extraordinarily beautiful teacup

Her question snapped me out of my gaze that was too busy scanning her tea room, yes she has a tea room, I don't even have my own bedroom, and she's giving free rooms to tea's, disrespectful

Her house was beautiful, grand and luxurious just like herself, her one wall's decoration probably costs more than my entire existence

sometimes I wish to have a life like hers, born in a rich household, having parents who are so supportive of everything you do, following your dream, being successful, getting a guy who worships you, and now being married and living a peaceful life.

I'm not jealous I swear, I love her to death and she deserves everything, but I do wish I had it easy like her

Looking at Chyler I've come to two conclusions, either nature hates me, or I'm a master at f*cking up my life.

"Well I have good news" I put the cup down, getting back to the conversation and paused to look up at her with a smile, "I got accepted" she widened her eyes and set down the cup too, "Really, oh my god Faith that's wonderful news" she got up excitedly to hug me.

"See I told you you would get the job, there is no way they could reject someone as talented as you" we broke the hug, "Yeah, well the other 10 companies already did that so I'm thinking they got bored of the trend"

She gave me a look that said "I'm tired of your negative shit so please shut up before I make you"

"The other companies don't matter anymore, you got a job at the biggest design company in London, they all know that they missed out and trust me, they're gonna regret it"

I wish I could be this positive about myself, to tell myself everyday that I'm talented and beautiful, But I can't

"Helloo, earth to Faith?" Chyler snapped me out of my thoughts, I shook my head quickly and smiled to cover up my previous monologue.

"Sorry about that." I pursed my lips and took a sip of the tea, ignoring Chyler'z concerned gaze I looked everywhere but hers trying to act okay, even when I'm not

"Faith.. it's been a year, are you still hanging onto what happened?" She asked with a soft voice, it almost made me want to cry. Ugh why am I so weak?

I looked up to push the tears back and took another sip, "Well it's a bit hard... I mean it's not something I can forget so easily but I'm trying" I said with an uneasy voice not daring to look up at her

It was the awkward 20 second silence that I got pressurised and finally gazed up to see her in the same position, Dammit she really doesnt give up does she

I sighed and gave her a slight smile, "I promise Paris, I'm trying and I'll be okay, don't worry" the lies escaped my mouth, I felt bad lying to her but I couldn't have her worrying so much. She has a life of her own and I shouldn't have to bring her into my problems

She didn't say anything in response but only sipped her tea and looked at the carpet underneath the table, I did too and expected the night to pass quickly

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I opened the front gate with the keys I had, it was more chilly now that it was the evening, I could see Cherish shivering in her jacket so I tried to hurry up the process but damn these old rusted piece of garbages can't open the darn lock- Ok never mind it's opened now

We hurdled inside and Cherish made the call, "Mommyyy, we're back from auntie Paris's" She yelled out, immediately my mother's face peaked from the kitchen, her eyes lit up and she got the other half of her body out of the kitchen aswell to greet us. "Oh my babies, you're early than I expected, oh well, I heated up the leftovers so we can eat, go change I'll set the table"

We followed her command and rushed upstairs, the smell of the Italian Pasta entered our noses. I could feel my mouth water, now Chyler did offer us to eat something but I could no longer stay and dine from this freakishly expensive utensils at her house, my poorness has way too much ego.

I came back downstairs where Cherish was helping mom, as much as she is a devil, atleast she has manners infront of mom.

The dinner went as usual, mom asked us of our visit to Paris's house, we told her the story, Cherish then started to ramble of how much she loved Aladdin and we had no choice but to nod and listen. When her chatter slowed down, and I was on my last nerve, mom changed the topic

"Oh I almost forgot to tell you both, your aunt Caroline is throwing a family reunion party this Saturday at her house, we should go too"

I paused the next bite I was gonna take and looked up to my mom, she noticed my hesitation and interrupted before giving me a chance to speak

"I know it's hard to get over everything that has happened in the last year Faith, But I know my family, they've changed and I swear it'll be a fresh new start for us"

I licked my lips and looked down to my food, she kept looking at me and tried to speak up but I beat her to it

"Your family is the reason we are here mom, They've humiliated us so much, why do you keep going back to them?"

She changed her posture awkwardly, "Because I want to make things right, I- I don't want to live in fear anymore"

I kept looking at her with a sympathetic look but didn't say anything

"Please say yes Faith, Mommy really wants to go" Cherish spoke all of a sudden with an innocent voice, not looking up from her food

I looked around and finally breathed a sigh

"Fine, we'll go, but if anyone says anything you know I won't hold back"

My mom smiled and I couldn't help but retaliate, I don't feel a tiny bit excited or positive about this decision but if it makes mom happy then.. So be it

The night ended with laughter and more high pitched singing of Speechless, I laid in bed thinking about the new job, maybe it will effect my life in a good way from now on. I didn't have the best year, but I still want to make everything right again, all I need is a chance.

And some tequila.