Inhumane

Chapter: 2

I arrive home at 1:56 AM, I fall on my bed, placing my backpack in the corner of my room. I unzip it and take out the sleeping pills, placing them on my bed.

I take off my dark blue hoodie and jeans, along with my socks and shoes. I am only left with my bra, underwear and baggy shirt on, I get comfortable in my bed, opening the pills and taking one, closing it and putting it on the desk next to my bed.

I play with the one pill for a couple seconds before plopping it in my mouth and swallowing it dry. I was to exhausted to read the pill container, but in seconds I was out cold.

I woke up to see a dim light shine in my room. I sit up, checking the time on my phone. 1:22 PM.

I lay in my bed for a couple minutes to adjust to me waking up. I soon get up and grab some clothes from my wardrobe and head to my shower.

I get undressed and get in the shower, leaving my head bandages on. I take my time to relax under the steaming water. Memories flashed in my mind, I couldn't stop them, they just happend!

I got out, blow dryed my hair and brushed it. I put on a dark grey shirt and another pair of dark blue baggy jeans with a black belt. I wore my white vans, which are no longer white but stained with blood and dirt. I never bothered to clean them. I put on my baggy large dark blue sweater.

I made sure to clean my open cut wounds on my wrists, wrapping them in bandages.

I look in the mirror at my abused face. I caused this. I hated myself so much, I ruined my face, covered in bruises and cuts, I slowly removed the wet and soggy bandages.

The huge bruise was still on my forehead, not like it was going to go away that fast. I gently touched the swollen bruise and winced in pain.

I tossed the wet bandage in the trash, taking out new ones and placing them on the toilet seat. I slowly removed the other bandage covering my eye.

I tossed the soggy bandage in the trash, looking at my eye. It was disgusting. A huge scar was on my eye, I had scratched it so hard it looked like a bear attacked me.

I sighed, applying some medicine on my eye. I knew it was going to scar, but the eye itself was... Shocking...

When I scratched my eye, I forced myself to scratch the actual eyeball. My eye swollen, red, bleeding... You could see the scratch mark as the pupil contracted, and my left pupil stayed the same. I looked like a maniac, but I wasn't.

I gasped at the horrific sight, I quickly grabbed my bandages as covered my forehead and eye with them.

I didn't want to go to the doctor to get my wounds checked out, because they would just ask what happend to me. And I didn't really feel like going to therapy and shit.

I decided to skip breakfast since I just woke up and not was really that hungry. I brushed my teeth and went to go get my phone from my room.

I turn on my phone to find no notifications. I put my phone in my back pocket.

I sit on the couch for a bit. Sitting there in silence.

I get up, actually kinda wanting to go outside today. It was a nice warm day, so, why not?

I opened the door and got out. I looked at the sun, squinting my eyes at the brightness.

The ringing in my ears start, I hold my ears for at least 20 seconds, and then the ringing stops. But then the headace comes in, along with the blurry vision. I squeezed my eyes shut. I waited a good minute before opening my eyes, I blinked a couple times before the headace and blurry vision went away.

I adjusted the glasses on my face, putting my hoodie over my head.

I look across the street to see a teenage boy staring at me, he has a worried look on his face. Their garage is open and I can see someone in there working on something.

I've been living here for at least a month now, how have I never noticed them? I thought to myself.

Oh yeah, because I never go outside. Only to get shit. I say to myself in my mind.

I cross my arms, staring at the kid until he looks away, going to the other person in the garage.

I start to walk away, going to the nearby park, Peck Road Park (This is an actual park on El. Monte and it's really cool)

When I start walking, I get a glance of a tall man and the boy looking at me. I ignore them, but something about the man is very familiar.

I sigh, taking my phone out and ear buds, connecting them and placing the earbuds in my ears. I go on Spodify to my playlist and play We Are Young. I sigh again, placing my phone in my sweater pocket, placing my hands in my sweater pocket and walking off towards the park.