Would You Do It For Me? // G.D

♧ Chapter 4 ♧

After my meeting with Grayson, I was feeling sick and scared. What is going to happen now? Everything he was saying made complete sense. I dont understand how other people exsist in my brain and live in my body. I wonder how Tyler is going to react. So many questions race my mind as I'm in the back of a cab on my way home.

I decided to call Gra---Tyler and ask him to come round, I needed a hug and to be taken care of right now. "Hey babe what's up I'm kinda busy watching the game so could you make it quick?" Oh no, this isnt going to go down well. "Um, babe, I'm really sorry to interrupt your game but, I've just been given some pretty heavy news and, I just need you right now." I prepared myself for the snotty comment that was most likely going to come very soon. "Ugh, fine. Call me on uber and I'll be there."
"Um, babe I dont think I've got enough money in my bank account at the moment, I get paid tomorrow." I checked my account, $3.67.
"Ugh, fine. Maybe if you worked harder you would have enough money to fucking pay for things sometimes instead of making me pay for everything." What the fuck?
"Babe, when have you ever paid for anythi--"
"Shut up crazy bitch, don't fucking answer me back slut!" Wow.
"You know what? Dont think about ever coming over to fucking see me again! You're the worst fucking person I've ever met. I hope you have a terrible fucking life asshole!"
"Eden dont you d--" I hung up on him. Say it with me ladies... prick.
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I finally got into my apartment and broke down. This had to be the shittiest day of my life. I couldn't believe it. I mean, Tyler has always been an asshole but it was always just the way he was. But that was just fucking ridiculous. I went into the kitchen and got out a glass of wine. I sat back down on the couch and decided to call the first person on my mind, aside from my new therapist.

"Hey, Amber." Amber has been my best friend since preschool. "Hey baby what's good?"
"Are you busy at the moment?"
"No, need me to come round?" Yes, desperately.
"Only if you're not busy, if you are dont worry."
"Hey, hey. Weve talked about this. You know I'd drop anything for you?" I love this girl so much
"Ugh, thankyou. I love you alot girl"
"Love you more girl. Seeya in 5!"
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I heard a knock at my door and ran to it. I quickly opened it and threw my self at Amber, desperately needing a big hug. "Hey, hey. Awww it's ok." She picked me up and carried me over to the sofa. We sat cuddling for about 30 minutes in silence before Amber asked what had happened. I told Amber everything, from the second I was asked to go to 4D, to the moment I hung up on Tyler.

Amber looked at me in disbelief, " wait, wait. Hold up. Putting Tyler aside for a minute- but we will come back to that asshole- you have DID?"
I looked at her with fear in my eyes and nodded my head. "Oh baby, you must feel so scared."
"I do."
"Well, what did your new therapist tell you to do?" I'll tell you what I'd like to do to him.
"Um, he told me I need to communicate with my alters, and that would make things way easier."
"Well let's spend tonight trying to do that!"

And we did just that. All night we did things that could maybe bring out another alter, or try and talk to them. Sometimes I could hear a voice trying to talk back to me, but it was so quiet. That was until I remembered something.

(Trigger warning) About 6 years ago, so when I was 15. I attempted suicide for the second time. I just remember sitting in my dirty ass bathtub crying, Then all of a sudden I heard a voice. And it wasnt mine for sure. 'Go call 911.' I was confused at first and stayed where I was but then it happened again 'Eden, go call 911. It's ok baby, you're ok.' I got my phone and dialed 911, the voice told me exactly what to say and whispered sweet nothings to me. I used the think It was my guardian angel, but I think I know what it is now.

I told Amber about it and she asked me about songs I possibly listened to at the time, or pictures that could trigger me. She started playing a list of songs from 2014 and she clicked on a song, I couldn't remember it that well but I started getting dizzy, I got a really bad headache but I didnt take note of it because that happens all the time, but all of a sudden it was like I was staring at myself from the ceiling, like I wasnt in my body and I could see myself.

The next thing i remember is getting a huge headache and sitting an a different side of the sofa. "Hey honey, is it Eden?" I looked up and saw Amber looking at me. "Uhh, yeah it's me? What happened?" Amber passed me a glass of water and I thanked her. "You just switched! You did it! And the weirdest part is I've met her before, like whenever we talk, like, half of the time it's you, and then most of the other times its her!" I looked at her thoroughly confused.
"What are you talking about, who?"
"One of your alters, Brooklyn" wow. I've always said I liked that name. "What is she like? Did she mention how old she was?"
"I asked her and she told me she is--" she looked down at her phone, she must have been keeping notes about her, "23, she is 23" huh, that's my lucky number. "Imagine you, but like- in the nicest way possible- cooler."
"Wow thanks, bestie!" She gave me a sarcastic look. "Oh come on, you know what I mean! Like not anymore fun to hang out with than you but, you're more cute and innocent looking. I imagine her as being the type of girl to dye her hair hot pink impulsively and wear alot of chains," I giggled at her comment. "You need to try and talk to her, I think you would get along."
"Well I would hope so considering we share a body."

"Hey Eden? Want me to stay with you for a few weeks, so that you're not alone?" Hearing those words come out of her mouth was like music to my ears. "I would love for you to stay, please do."

And with that she went back to her place to get her stuff whilst I ordered dinner for both of us considering its probably not the safest thing to cook, because I still dont know how all of this works properly. Also because I want pizza...