PRETTY. // [Juuzou Suzuya x Reader] Tokyo Ghoul

kino & y/n

[flashback 3. (full chapt.)]

(kino pov.)
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I didn't need anything or anyone.
I didn't want flowers or stars.

I only ever wanted to lie down and ignore all knowledge of the future.

Unfortunately, it's been impossible for a long time now.

She.
You?

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Even in the cave of the nights when you
wake and are free and lonely,
neglected by others, discarded, loved only
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.
by what doesn't matter --
.
.
even in that
big room no one can see
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"Kino."
"(Y/N)."

Back then, she resided in a near-suburban part of town almost her entire childhood. It was by coincidence she ever crossed paths with me in the first place...
Is what I want to say.
But I can't help but have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that's telling me...perhaps this was a wake up call?
Of course, that's a lie.

My life has always been
a dangerous road,
an intricate science (as she would say).

My birth...existence --- in itself --- was a sin.
Sinful satisfactions sweep over,
Curiosity laughs;;temptations have won.

Sinful satisfactions...
in.
my.
mouth.

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F L E S H;;
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As the blood dribbled down my lips, I couldn't help but falter...
How could this world, with all it's slothfulness, even be given the opportunity to exist?

With that being said...my life has always been boring.
I'm dying of boredom...or maybe just dying.
Its rather monotonous.

I hunt chickens, men hunt me.
All the chickens are alike.
All the men are alike.
The exact same.
So in consequence, I am a little bored.

....
...
..
.

To be honest, maybe I'm just sad.
This boredom has no reason to bore me.

Because I have decided to become dull and stupid,
I can't help but take fond in the madness.?
The thrill of every step.?
Of every shriek.?

[dot question mark;;???????]
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..ugh.....

When I take a deep breath and wonder about things like that, I can't help but pity the (unreachable) absolete mindset.