4 ~ Alicia

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A week had passed since Colton was murdered. I didn't want to see anyone. I didn't want to make conversations. I really didn't to tell Colton's family that he died. It was my fault. I didn't bother eating. I didn't feel like moving. My phone lies untouched, unchanged. I felt as if his presence was with me. AS if he was still here. I can feel him. I can hear his voice. His laughter. His random spur of the moment thoughts that he would talk aloud to himself. I just couldn't see him. Or touch him. The house felt bitterly cold. It snowed last night. A thick blanket of snow covered everything outside. All I could picture was Colton's face in my mind. He died so young. He was only 22. 22!! We planned our future together. we were going to move to Georgia, get a dog, raise a family. I still can't believe that he's gone. As time went by I stopped going outside. I stayed inside. I isolated myself. Away from everyone and everything. The fact that he was forever gone was unbearable. How? It felt as if a part of me ripped out of me. Days turned into months, months into years. Four years. I was crushed. Uncertain of what to do.

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