Invisible Existence II Lisa

Chapter 5: "So Should I Give Up?"

"M-mental operation?" Lisa replies with a surprised look. "There's no other choice Lisa. You know that no one's helping you to remember your lost memory. It has been 5 years. Only if they helped you little then things would have got reminded long ago. And if we do the operation then everything about that trauma and stuffs could be removed. Lastly, you'll be able to live a common life like the others. Isn't that better?"

He got a point. Lisa has been hurt for years. Besides, she doesn't have a permanent amnesia. Therefore, a little try would have made her remember. But, wouldn't she had been hurt more after remembering everything? Cause I'm still lost in this world. I immediately held Lisa's hand tight. She did notice but she didn't want to move her hand away. I know right? I can feel my girl.

Lisa: But doctor, isn't that as same as giving up?

Doctor: If you still want to have that miserable life, I don't have a problem.

Lisa: Doctor? Why are you saying like this? Are you making me give up?

Doctor: Dear I had been your personal doctor for years. I care for you as a family member. So I also feel sad by seeing you hurt. I guess it's better to forget and move on. Don't you think that?

He did have a point again. She needs to have a healthy life. Being into alcohols and cry all night isn't a life. I sadly smile at her. "So what's your decision?" asks the doctor. "How much would it cost anyway?" "Since I had known you and your family for long so I guess we can keep less than the actual cost. Besides, you work in a rich company so I don't think even if I had kept the actual cost, it would be so much for you. Still, I would like to keep less. You're like a daughter to me."

Lisa sighs deeply and stays silent for some time. "I'll let you know later doctor. I need time to think about it." "Sure you may dear," says the doctor and leaves. "So, are you interested to do that operation?" I ask her being anxious to know the answer. "I don't know Y/n. I'm just answerless. I don't even know what my brain wants and what's my heart wanting." I give her a sad smile and stay silent. She smiles weakly. "Should I accept doctor's appeal?" I get shocked when she asked me that. Honestly, here I don't even know should I think about myself or think about her. If the operation happens, she'll clearly remember nothing. She'll be able to live a healthy life, will find another love and have a happy life. And most of all, maybe she won't be able to see me anymore then. And if she stays like this, the pain won't go away. Here, I would look selfish. Also if fate makes her find me "dead" then everything's gone. I'll leave the world and she would be left hurt forever. Now I'm in a mental dilemma. But I can also be alive... Who knows? I can't even leave her being hurt. ........So should I give up?

Lisa: Y/n? I'm asking something.

Y/n: Lisa, it depends on you. Please don't ask this to me. There's nothing to do with me.

Here it goes, I'm lying.

Lisa: But what if I can't see you anymore after that?

Y/n: Why you care? And why you think that?

Lisa: Just having the feeling tbh.

Y/n: Even if you won't able to see me, would it matter anyway? You'll be able to live a better life after the operation succeeds.

Lisa: Y-you're right... (Sighs)

Y/n: ......Lisa, do you really want that to happen?

Lisa: Ah...

Y/n: Don't you want to find out the person whom you loved? Don't you want your best memories come back?

Lisa: Y/n ... D-don't know.