Invisible Existence II Lisa

Chapter 11: Remember

"I'm his mother."

The line sent shivers down Lisa's spine. She couldn't believe what she just said.

"Y-Y/n's brother is Jimin and Chanyeol?"

She nodded then. "Since when did you get amnesia?"

"5 years ago..."

"And none tried to make you remember?"

"They said its true painful to remember. Mainly they didn't want to make me remember it. But...it was really painful to cry everyday for an unknown reason. Most likely, I was crying for someone. I couldn't even date anyone. Even though I had so many confessions still, I never wanted to... I don't know why. I also had a dream daily where I am crying on the top of my lungs because my lover got missing and polices were unable to find him."

She nodded as hearing her full. For a few moments, there was silence. Probably Mrs. Park was thinking about what she said. Meanwhile, Jimin and Chanyeol showed up with trays of tea and snacks. After placing them on table properly, they left from there.

"Post traumatic memory loss," Mrs. Park said with being a bit serious.

"Yes...?" Lisa asked being dumbfounded.

"You got post traumatic memory loss. The moment when your lover got lost was so traumatic that it was unable for you to tolerate. Which reason, your brain wanted to get rid of it. Thus, you don't remember the person but only a little bit of memory. It does make sense that why your parents didn't want you to remember again. Because remembering them would've been no advantage anyway. You'd be traumatized once again."

"Oh..." Lisa replied with a slight sigh as well. "Y-Y/n assumed me as his lover yesterday by the way..." she said again.

"Because you are his lover," she replied with a smile. She knew that but...she still wasn't able to believe because she couldn't remember him, she didn't know why...

"He cannot be..." she replied, still having disbelief.

"I understand...let me show you something wait," Mrs. Park said as she head upstairs straight. After a few minutes, she comes back with a diary on her hand.

"What is this Mrs. Park?"

"Y/n's diary."

"Huh...?" Lisa replied being dumbfounded.

"He had a habit of writing personal diary if you don't remember." Mrs. Park said as she flipped pages.

"I didn't know," Lisa chuckled after replying.

"Found it! Read it," she handed the diary to Lisa.

"W-wouldn't it be ill-mannered to see someone else's perso—"

"Just read it, will ya?"

"Oh okok."

She held the diary comfortably and started to read the page carefully.

9th April, 2014 *Wednesday*

I was on a date with Lisa at a park yesterday. Lisa loves kids playing so she also started to play along with them as there were some playing, leaving me behind alone:(. Though I loved watching her play more than joining them along with my girlfriend. My girl might be 17 but her behavior would seem like a 12-year-old girl. This was the most attractive part of my girl. None could count my love for her. When I kissed her soft lips, I felt like I was in heaven. Seeing her, my pain goes away. Her being herself makes me smile every day. Her cute smile, her love for me, everything makes my day. I thought yesterday that what I did in life to deserve someone like her. All my life, I had been neglected by my family. They always called me weak, fragile. But who knew that there would be someone who'd make me realize I am worthy? I love her more than I love myself. I'll cherish her till death. Someday, I'll make her my queen and have one prince and a princess. I'll love my children more than I was loved. I will never make them feel worthless, depressed and more than that, I'll never make them hurt themselves. The shit I used to do before I met Lisa. I never told her though. She's too sweet to know my painful life. So I would rather keep loving her and try to forget about my sad past <3 I hope someday I'll forget those shits which happened to me and have a pure smile more than a fake one as my baby hates it.