The Edge of Us

Five

"Your weakness makes me feel less worthless."
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"Aaargh!" inis kong itinapon ang unan sa sahig. Paano ba naman kasi, hindi parin matahimik ang utak ko at paulit-ulit nalang nagre rewind yong kaganapan kanina.

Ang complicated naman dito. Hindi lang yong lugar at daanan kundi maging mga tao. I huff at itinalapon ang sarili sa kama. I really have to find a better way to get my freedom as soon as possible. At ang dapat kung gawin ay simulan ito sa pangangabisado ng bawat sulok dito. Upang magawa 'yon I have to draw myself nearer to my enemy. The closer I get to him the bigger the chances for me to end this insufferable situation.

I got up from the bed and decided to take a bath to freshen up, clearing my mind from what bothers me. Isinuot ko ang itim na baby doll dress na hanggang mid-thigh lang ang length na iniiwang naka uwang ang gitna nang dibdib ko at balingkinitan kong mga braso dahil sa sleeveless v-neck ito.

Pagkatapos kong magbihis at mag ayos ay naisipan kong tumambay muna sa balcony para magpalipas na muna nang oras bago bumaba at kumain. I snapped my head facing the right side, there I find Alexander appeared on his balcony his facing towards my direction with another man probably one of his trusty body guards here. Both of them wore black suits and seem so engrossed on whatever they are dealing with.

I gasped when Alexander's gaze fell on me. He's still speaking with the man but his still eyeing me from afar. Gusto ko siyang isturbuhin kaya naman ay ipinatong ko ang siko ko sa railing at itinukod sa panga ko habang tinititigan siya nang mapang-akit na mga tingin.

Nilalaro ng hangin ang buhok at damit ko. Mas umigting ang pagtitig niya saakin gusto ko ang bawat ipinapakita niyang reaksyon every time na ginagawa ko kung ano man ang ginagawa ko. I frowned when he suddenly dismissed the man and disappeared from the balcony. I don't know why I felt disappointed about it.

Instead of dwelling on my disappointment I tried to fix my bed sheet and press it well enough to be neat. I find myself satisfied as I checked my work.

Not long after, a man barged in my room. I cocked my gaze to see who is it. The listless body a while ago and the disappointment that makes my heart flinch is no longer here. Probably the man in front of me made them disappeared. Alexander really makes me alive.

"Do you know how to knock?" I threw my eyes in the back, crossed my arms under my breast and stand confidently.

"I don't do the knocking thing but I'm willing to learn if you teach me how to." he retaliated. I can't help not to clenched my teeth at his bald arrogance.

"What is it now?" I waved his rubbish talk.

He brought his wrist watch on his mouth clutching it his another hand and press something in there that emits faint click sound.
"Let her in." saad niya.

Pagkatapos ay bumukas ang pinto at may pumasok na isang babae na nakadamit nang halter dress-like na uniform unlike the other maids that I saw this lady is weigh older.

Pinagmasdan ko ang matandang babae, with his wrinkled face, appearing grayish hair over those brunette ones. She's looking at me with longing and teary eyes. Nagtaka naman ako sa aura niya. She winged her hand holding them together in the middle of her stomach. Parang may gusto itong sabihin na hindi niya magawang pakawalan sa bahagyang nanginginig na mga maninipis at mala-rosas na labi.