F THE PEDOS

before the crash

(i know it's been crackish and weird these past parts but bare with me lmao)

**jeyjey pov **
my head is killing me.
i hate how i feel after taking drugs, worthless.

i woke up on the couch with.. BENJI??
what is benji doing here ? omfg omfg. how did I forget? fuck he saw me pass out.

noen is sleeping on the floor and benji is just staring at me.. why does he look angry?
"hey benji"
"fuck that jey, what happened? why did you"—

oh no he's crying. he probably sees me in a different way. im such a idiot, why am I hurting him like this.

**Benji POV**
I'm crying like a stupid fucking idiot. I'm such a crybaby, I couldn't hold my tears back.
"Benji I'm sorry i can explain"
"you could have died jey, why are you taking drugs?!"
my voice keeps cracking omg.

Ugh, now nOeN  wakes up.
"Hey jey, you good?"
"yea im fine" jey says with a smile, he's so pretty.

why is noen so chill about what happened?

"he doesn't even care about you, why is he even here?" I say under my breath hoping maybe jey would hear.

"Can you leave for a minute noen" jey says
"uhh yea sure.."
Noen walks upstairs staring at me.

" benji remember the day I told you i was in the hospital because i was drunk and in a accident ?"

"yea"

"Well it's not the first time I've gotten drunk and did stupid things or drugs..."

"Huh?"

"I use drugs benji, because it makes me feel better than i do now..i stopped for a while, when i was with you in the hospital..but coming home was hard for me''

"What— what do you mean?"

"listen.. my parents are barely here and I have to find my own food and I'm alone a lot. That's why I have noen here , he knows about my problems and I didn't want you to know cause I liked how things were with us"

"Wow. You should have told me, i would have helped"

"I didn't want you to help and remember me this way"

"It doesn't matter jey we will get through this together, I'll stay for as long as I need too."

"thank you benji" jey says looking down with a smile

he's so cute even when his hair is messed up.

Noen come back down the steps..
" hey guys , jey do you mind if i spend the night?"
" it's fine, you can" jey says with no hesitation.

Why couldn't it just be me and jey. Why can't this noen guy leave.

"Cool. I'm gonna shower" noen says already taking off his shirt

Who does he think he is??