The Day (NamSeok)

Denial

(um, new chapter for anyone who's still hanging there💀)

(J-HOPES POINT OF VIEW)

I'm scared. I won't go, I can't go, maybe I can call Jin and pretend to be sick. I slapped my face way harder than I expected, "Snap out of it! They're just you're friends and you're not going to ruin Jin's party because of some silly accident!"

"An accident? Is that all it really was Hobi?" I sigh while I take a seat on my couch. I don't know how to feel, it's all too much for me. I quickly get up to the restroom and take a quick shower before the party.

I get out of the shower and look at myself in the mirror. "Okay! Let's think about this rationally, shall we?" I say to myself in the mirror. "We went the the park and everything was going good until he attacked me. I got an erection from God knows what and I ran! It's a normal reaction! Maybe I was thinking of something else or I saw something! And then he came in the restroom and kissed me and now I'm all types of confused!" Yelling at myself now.

I then hear a voice behind me, "Wow. Well wasn't that a lot to take in," says Jin who somehow came into my house.

"How did you get in here?!" I say shockingly.

"I know where your spare key is, duh!" he says in a sassy tone.

"You're not going to say anything, are you Jin?" I ask hoping to hear the answer I want to hear.

"No, I'm not," he replies. "But you are going to tell me everything!" he giggles like a little school girl.

"You're not repulsed by it?" I ask.

"Why would I be? You like him and that's okay with me, as long as you're happy," Jin responds.

"Pfft! I don't like him! It was an accident, that's all it was!" I say while walking of the restroom to my closet.

"I wasn't born yesterday Hobi!" he replies while following me. "Listen, if you like him it's no big deal! So what if you're gay or bisexual! It's normal for anyone to question their sexuality," he exclaims still following me.

I get to my closet and shut the door in Jin's face.

"Look, I know you're confused and in denial, but maybe this is good for you!" he yelled.

I open the door to face him, "I'm not in denial and I'm not gay," I replied.

"Then what happened at the park Hobi?" he asked.

"I don't want to talk about it!" I yell in his face and he looks at me with sadness in his face. It was like I yelled at a puppy who was barking to help me by telling me an intruder was in my home trying to murder me. I know his intentions are good, but enough is enough. "You need to go Jin, we can talk later okay?" I say to him while I lead him to the door to leave.

I shut the door and sigh as my back slides down the door. I hit the back of my head at the door and whisper to myself, "What now..? This party is going to be a disaster."