The Party

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by bigbangking

by bigbangking

(SORRY FOR THE WAIT FOR WHOEVER WAS EVEN WAITING, SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG. THANK YOU FOR WHOEVER IS STILL READING THIS STORY, EVEN THOUGH I TAKE A WHILE, LOVE YOU GUYS.)

(NAMJOON'S POV)

I really do not want to go to Jin's party, but he is my buddy and I'm not going to let my issues get in the way of his joy. I'll just have to deal with it and try to avoid talking to him, I won't even mention his name, it'll just bring back memories of the day it all started. I showered, got dressed, and head out the door. On the way there, I couldn't stop thinking about him, thinking about a situation where he and I were actually dating and enjoying ourselves. Maybe my feelings for him were genuine and not just an accident that happened the day we went to the park. But, what if my feelings are onesided, maybe he actually was disgusted by me and never wants to see me again.

I've never really thought about my sexuality or even considered liking someone, let alone a guy. I mean there are some really attractive people in the world, and there are a few. I just don't know why I'm barley recognizing these feelings now, I mean I've seen him almost my whole life. I mean I kinda knew but I never really expressed them in this way before and to this extent. These are the things I ponder about, whether one of my best friends likes me back or not.

"I'm pathetic," I sigh out.

"$40 bucks," the cab driver hands his hand out to me.

"Oh! My bad," I say while handing him the money and getting out of the taxi.

I look up to Jin's apartment complex in agony, not wanting to see him or his reaction to the situation. Maybe he wants to fight it out, beat the hell out of me for what I did. I deserve it, I'm the lowest piece of scum on this earth right now for doing this to one of my best friends, so I wouldn't be surprised if he did, I guess we'll just have to see.

"Well, here we go," I say to myself knocking on Jin's door.