Never Lose Your Flames (Tyler Carter x Reader)

Remember When

As we got home, tyler took my hot topic bags and opened my door.

"Thanks tyler, that was fun" I smile.

"Yeah..anything for you" he looks down at his shoes and smile.

I unlock the door and walk into the room, Michael is loudly listening to fall out boy, sky is practicing his bass, Ty is eating cereal, josh is chasing AJ around with a spoon in his hands.

"What the hell!!" I laugh.

The guys look up and act normal.

"Don't try to play it off" I say as tyler joins me in laughter.

I walk up to my bedroom and lay everything out on my bed. I decide to wear a black knee high dress with no sleeves, a short leather jacket, and black ankle boots, for Audrey's funeral.

I see tyler leaning on the door, smiling.

"What" I giggle.

"Oh nothing" he smirked. "I really want you to sing a song for Michael and Audrey at her funeral. it would mean the world to him" tyler suggested. he couldn't stop smiling. "I have heard you sing..its majestic as fuck"

I couldn't help but blush. I agreed and automatically regret it after he turns around to leave into his room.

"Fuck" I whisper to myself.

I figured that I would sing Disappear from their Diamond Dreams EP. I didn't talk with Audrey a lot, but shit was she nice. she would drive me places I needed to be, make me food, buy me things, and even tried to help with my depression. come to think of it..i actually missed her. a lot.

Tears burned out of my eyes onto my bed. I hear my door creak open and I sniff and quickly wipe my tears away.

"Hey" it was Michael. he had dark bags under his eyes. his beard was getting uneven and scruffy. I went up to hug him. I wrapped my arms tightly around his waist, causing him to tumble back a little bit.

"I miss audrey" I sob into his arms. I let it all out, loud cries and scream.

Day of the funeral..

Michael went up into the alter and prepared his speech.

"Audrey" he paused and did a laugh which made him sound like he was going crazy.

"She was the most important person in my life. we had many fights, but resolved them with love. it wasn't no ordinary love. she was different than the rest. she made me a different person, a better person. no matter what, she'll always be mine, no one else's, her perfect imperfections made me love her. she was just an amazing person. her personality, her looks.." he paused again for a quiet chuckle, followed by a small group of laughter.

"She made my life brighter, aside from the band and my sister, she was my light to a better life. without her, I wouldn't have gone this far. I miss her, I'm not the only one, but she was a very special person, no one could replace her. I will always remember you, Audrey, put a hole in your heart and then you can feel what I feel..."

He stopped and came down to sit next to me.

"You ended with your own lyrics" I smiled as tears rolled down my cheeks.

He silently laughed as tears came streaming down his eyes.

"Your turn, Addi" sky tells me.

My stomach turned when he said that. it was my turn to perform disappear in front of these people. wow. everyone was there.

I took a deep breath and headed on up to the stage. I grabbed AJ's guitar he let me borrow and I slowly tuned the guitar. I cleared my throat and breathed heavily.

"Remember when I didn't need you
Well I need you now
To hold my head up high say it's all better now...

Some days I feel like a saint, I'm so alive
Some days I can't make any moves
It's like I have no spine
Can't do anything right
And when midnight comes I've run out of time to
Make some kind of difference
I constantly overlook the impact I've made
Maybe I'm longing to change my own face
To make you proud, I wanna make you proud
When you're looking down on me

My mind's wide open like starry skies
I ask God questions and wonder why
The hell that you're not here
I wanna disappear with you now

But I'm a selfish broken heart and how I got this far
Coping with the thought of holding you a minute longer in my arms is beyond me
I set you free

A product of a free world
Take wing over the coast of a better day
I'm stuck in my dark days
But I can be stronger than you remember
We're coming up on December, but I'm not cold

My mind's wide open like starry skies
I ask God questions and wonder why
The hell that you're not here
I wanna disappear with you now

Remember when I didn't need you
Well I need you now
To hold my head up high say it's all better child
Remember when I was alone and crying out
You will be missed
I'm gonna miss you
But I know you're all better now"

I sang with a lot of passion, I soon got used to the feeling of being on stage and forgot that anyone was listening to me. I felt like I was all alone in my house, singing like I do everyday.

As I sang the last verse, a very loud cheer and applauding woke me up from the feeling of being alone. I stood up, bowed and placed the guitar back in it's case. I slowly walked down the stairs and set the guitar beside me.

All of the guys have me high fives and fist bumps. I was proud of myself but I couldn't forget about Audrey, this was her time..

--After funeral--

I was beat, today was tiring and I was tired of crying. I felt that my eyes had sandbags under them.

I walked into my room, undressed and slipped into the shower. the warm water ran down my body as Cool Kids by Echosmith played from my phone.

I turned the nob of the shower and wrapped my hair and body in crisp, clean, white towels. I walked into my room and dressed up for the night.

I slipped on a grey tank top and black sweatpants that said 'fuck you very much'.

I fell asleep very quickly, lightly snoring..

I heard a loud gunshot come from the kitchen. The guys were up as well and came over to me. I was very worried, Michael has tried to kill himself before..did he try again?

We ran together down the kitchen and I see Michael laying on the floor. blood splattered everywhere, a gun in his hands.

Tears don't even come out, just loud screaming. I lean against the wall, causing the painting to fall over me.

I can't cry, I just loudly scream. I can't stop screaming. the guys call an ambulance and Ty and tyler try to calm me down. AJ and sky pick up Michael from the bloody puddle and Josh scrambled to call the ambulance.

I sit up and I'm sweating. I quickly gasp and run downstairs. I see tyler still up, it's 4 in the morning and he's watching Dr. Phil, he got that bored.

"Hey what's up" his voice was dry.

"I had the worst dream ever" I plainly said.

He motioned for me to come sleep next to him. I walked quickly into his arms and he tightly hugged me. I fell asleep in tyler Carter's arms that night.