Forgiven (Bakushim/Kiribaku) ~DISCONTINUED~

Chapter 3

So Ima time skip to a year later! So we can get to the Kiribaku stuff faster >;3

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It's been a year and I have a new sibling, and another new one that's on the way.

2nd year in middle school and everything as been through it's up and downs. Bakugou checks on me every single day, but it's not enough I'm afraid. My dad still beats the crap outta me and he dropped baby Aoi at least once. We found out mom was pregnant just last week so that's amazing. My sisters are on they're last year of high school and my little brother is in middle school with me.

I felt uneasy today because my dad is legit outside my door yelling and pounding on it. "Open this fucking door!" I honestly don't know why he keeps doing this to me, am I adopted or does he just have pure hatred for me? I don't want to know. 

My head hurt from his beating yesterday and I have discovered something new for me. It's self harm and it works so well, it numbs the pain. My mind was always set on numbing my physical and emotional pain. He barged in finally and came up in my face. "Do you want to fucking get me mad!? huh!? FUCKING ANSWER ME!" I closed my eyes as he grabbed my hair and slammed me against the wall. "I said fucking answer me." He slapped me across the face making it sting like hell. 

"I don't w-want to get you mad.." He chuckled and started throwing me around like always, making sure I leave with a cut or something.

I made it out with a busted lip, a black eye, and a bleeding nose. Which was good because he usually almost cracks my poor bones. I crawl to my closet and get out the first aid kit Bakugou got me, for stuff like this or when he isn't here to take care of me. I grab the cotton swab so I could clean up the blood from my nose and busted lip. 

It does suck living like this all the time, because I can't just up and run away. I can't just live on the streets or with Bakugou. I just can't. If it's hard to make a living in this house then it would be hard out there too, because you have to worry about the drug addicts and gangs. I clean up the blood on the floor and text Bakugou. I almost started hyperventilating during that beating but I made it out with out it.

My feelings were also confirmed. I found out I like him, but not love. My heart always hurts when he gets love letters or if he even gets close to a girl other than Mina. I sound yandere but it just feels like I want him all to myself at times.

I yawn and change into my pjs and get cozy in my bed. My eyes were getting heavy, and then I fell into a deep sleep.

"DON'T LEAVE ME! BAKUGOU PLEASE DON'T GO!!" He slammed the door shut while I sat there on my knees just watching the door, and wondering what the hell did I do when he was the one who cheated on me and began this fight. I cried getting up, and heading to the bed. My heart hurt and my wrists were calling for the razor, but I made a promise to him. Why am I having these dreams? they hurt so damn much. Its like a lucid dream but at the same time it feels to real for it to even pass as a dream. I crawled to my nightstand and opened it, grabbing the old razors. 

I made a promise but I can break them, for my own good. When I need to break them I do because it hurts, he hurt me and he said he never would so it couldn't hurt to do this right? I cut, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, I stopped there and put on our favourite songs, and did more. I stopped at 78 cuts on both wrists because he would be pissed if he ever came back. Which I doubt he would ever come back and save me from me, he knew I just got out of the hospital, he knows me, and he up and left me without a damn word. That fucking ass. "Fuck sakes Bakugou.. I just got out and alreayd betraying me...? I knew I should've never trusted you.." I smiled to myself and fell asleep from all these cries, cuts, and pain.

I jumped out of my bed because of that stupid dream again. We're always hurting each other in our dreams but not in real life, huh. I grab my chest as if my heart would stop beating, I had a cold sweat, my head hurt and I was gasping for air. These dreams really get to me sometimes. 

The clock said that it was 4:32 AM. Which means school doesn't start for another 3 and a half hours. I get my stuff together so I could hopefully relax and get my mind cleared and ready for school. Everyone was obviously asleep. I got in my bathroom and stripped, I turned the water on and relaxed thinking hard about what the hell that dream might've been about.

My head still hurt after getting out of the tub, but I honestly didn't mind that. I was more worried about rather that dream is real or not. Because some of my dreams, happen in real life and it scares me. It scares me to the point that I can't sleep at all. It was only 5:00 o'clock so Emica and Rin should be up and studying by now. 

I get dressed in my uniform and go downstairs to go see if one of them went to go get baby Aoi. "Hey did you guys go get the baby?" I whispered to them, they looked at each other and back to me. "Nope, because today is your turn to take care of him." I rolled my eye's at they're immatureness and go back upstairs in his room. I softly pick him up since he was already trying to talk to get out.

He was so adorable, I thought I was going to die. "Hows my baby? hm? did he have a good sleep?" I smiled as I whispered to him, he giggled as I brought him to his potty. We both went downstairs as I propped him on my side so I could get him some food and his bottle for the day. I warmed up his bottle and put them in his baby bag. I grabbed some diapers just in case he couldn't make it to the potty at his daycare.

With that I texted Bakugou so he could help me with Aoi as we go to his daycare. It was finally 7:40 and we had almost everyone up. Our parents wake up at 9 so we have a lot of time, we just have to be extra quiet for our sideof luck.

I walked with Bakugou and Taro, and I was pushing the stroller. Sadly Taro walked further more because me and Bakugou stopped at the daycare. "Oh, what a lovely young couple, and a beautiful baby boy." An elderly couple said walking passed us. I blushed as we walked in.

"Will you guys be staying with your baby today?"

I nodded a no, since we still had to go to school and in middle school. "No, sorry, we're just dropping my baby brother off." They replied with an 'okay' and let us leave. I couldn't believe everyone thinks we're a couple with a babt but really it's just my brother.

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So I am updating the 4th chapter later or tomorrow, and then I'll start updating every two days so we could make it fair. :)

Also the next chapter will be another year so they would be on they're last year of middle school and then to high school where all the drama starts!

Have a great day and stay safe! :D