insight. jschlatt x reader

prelude.

johnathan had always been a chill person, always relaxed and laid back. any situation could be thrown at him and he could always handle it with ease. he never had trouble with the unknown, with issues he'd never faced before. he could suck it up and just do.

it was amazing.

she wanted to be like that, she wanted to be able to be quietly brave too. she felt constantly held back though, even more so by her diagnosis. there wasn't much she could do with the diagnosis part, but going to therapy had helped more with her anxiety.

it sucked, seeing the person you looked up to the most being everything you wanted to be. even if you two had been friends before anything, or even if you two were complete strangers, only seeing each other from other sides of the internet and occasionally crossing paths. maybe their paths weren't meant to cross in the way that they did. maybe the universe was upset that things didn't go their way, and it was now throwing a fit by burdening her with crippling anxiety and him with her.

there she went again, falling back into her spiraling as her therapist called it. she'd been working so hard, but everything seemed to be falling apart again. just when everything started to come together, she couldn't hold on.

her career was boosting, she was gaining popularity, she was getting good grades in school. what all went wrong?

"(y/n)? (y/n)!"

oh right, she was supposed to be saying all this out loud.