the melancholy of loving you | lee donghyuck

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Lee Donghyuck; Year 2016

Narinig kong may kumakatok sa pintuan ko
"Sino yan" tanong ko habang nag lalaro ako

"Donghyuck" sabi ng nanay ko pagkapasok nya ng kwarto.

"Oh hi ma" sabi ko habang ang atensyon nasa laro parin.

"Donghyuck, I need to talk to you" seryosong tono nya.

Tiningan ko sya saglit at bumaling ulit sa phone ko.

"Wait Ferlyn mic off muna tayo" inoff ko yung mic pero naglalaro parin ako.

Umupo sya sa harapan ko at hinawakan ang kamay ko.

"Donghyuck anak this is serious" at kinuha nya ng mahinahon ang phone ko at pinatay eto.

Tiningan ko sya at kinakabahan ako sa tono nya.

Why?

"Your dad.." at huminga sya ng malalim.

Oh.

"Bakit??" Kinakabahan kong tanong.

Napapikit ng madiin si mama at tiningan ako ng malungkot.

"He is diagnosed with brain cancer" may tumulong luha mula sakanyang mata. "S-Stage 3"
then she finally let out her cries.

I don't know what to think. The pain spreads out through out my body. I can't even think straight.

Teas fell out from my eye.

I closed them. May isasakit paba 'tong araw na 'to?
Why am I so lucky? Do I deserved this? This kind of suffering?

Lord? Anong ginawa ko? Ano?

Ano?

Mom wiped my tears using her thumbs and gave me a sad smile.

"The doctor said that.. there's a low chance na he's going to survived" malungkot na sabi nya.

"So let's spend more of our time with your dad" she said.

I hugged her.

Sometimes, you just need a hug from your mother to make everything better. Even if it is temporary.

No matter how old you get.